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[Alpha9th]

1 minute ago, leilaa said:

Arm kills lol

Maybe you can do something pleasant and don't use your hand?

[Alpha9th]

Maybe you can do something pleasant and don't use your hand?

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Just now, Alpha9th said:

Maybe you can do something pleasant and don't use your hand?

I'm typing with my hand which is easing it better. But I can hardly type lol. I have a ice pack on it if that's OK?

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Hidden post again

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So annoying

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Lilli loving her swimming pool in this weather

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I need to put on weight   but I need to loose it . Ugh

[Alpha9th]

5 minutes ago, leilaa said:

I need to put on weight   but I need to loose it . Ugh

You know, there is actually a compromise: gaining mass and physical training. I can say that I gained mass like that, but became more skinny in a same time. 

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3 minutes ago, Alpha9th said:

You know, there is actually a compromise: gaining mass and physical training. I can say that I gained mass like that, but became more skinny in a same time. 

But everyone know why I don't eat and if I start anything like that I'll over work Myself 

[Alpha9th]

9 minutes ago, leilaa said:

But everyone know why I don't eat and if I start anything like that I'll over work Myself 

Tell me, what do you think will happen? 

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Just now, Alpha9th said:

Tell me, what do you think will happen? 

If I start being healthy? And eat?

[Alpha9th]

Just now, leilaa said:

If I start being healthy? And eat?

Kinda that. 

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2 minutes ago, Alpha9th said:

Kinda that. 

I'll throw it up .. my goal is to loose weight I was on 7 stone I'm on 6.5 now so I'm progressing slowly.

[Alpha9th]

Will you throw it up by your own will? 

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1 minute ago, Alpha9th said:

Will you throw it up by your own will? 

I do with whatever I eat

[Alpha9th]

1 minute ago, leilaa said:

I do with whatever I eat

Maybe you shouldn't? I understand, this is complicated, but it isn't even an effective way to loose your weight. 

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Just now, Alpha9th said:

Maybe you shouldn't? I understand, this is complicated, but it isn't even an effective way to loose your weight. 

I just can't stand food in me. I eat it but I have to throw it up.

[Alpha9th]

How does it feel to have food in you? How it's different from a sence before you stop eating? 

[Alpha9th]

Just now, Alpha9th said:

How does it feel to have food in you? How it's different from a sence before you stop eating? 

*before you stopped 

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Just now, Alpha9th said:

How does it feel to have food in you? How it's different from a sence before you stop eating? 

It feels uncomfortable. Because I've struggled with my eating since I was like 12 I never had food inside of me for long.

[Alpha9th]

Just now, leilaa said:

It feels uncomfortable. Because I've struggled with my eating since I was like 12 I never had food inside of me for long.

Maybe you should try to train yourself? Like, is there any food that you like? Even junk, even drinks, something. 

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Just now, Alpha9th said:

Maybe you should try to train yourself? Like, is there any food that you like? Even junk, even drinks, something. 

I drink. I just find eating difficult 

[Alpha9th]

5 minutes ago, leilaa said:

I drink. I just find eating difficult 

But what about feeling drinks inside of you? And maybe you can begin with something like protein cocktails? 

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2 minutes ago, Alpha9th said:

But what about feeling drinks inside of you? And maybe you can begin with something like protein cocktails? 

I'm 17! I can't drink alcohol  :(! Feeling drinks don't bother me as much as food does. I don't know why?

[Alpha9th]

Just now, leilaa said:

I'm 17! I can't drink alcohol  :(! Feeling drinks don't bother me as much as food does. I don't know why?

Oh, I definitely didn't mean alcohol, of course not! It's better to say protein drink, I guess. Like this.