hey guys! hope your well and okay if not here's some hugs.
I have always judged myself and compared myself to others which isn't bad because I was looking and wanting to be a model etc. But, I am completely confused, am I pretty? I always get stares and looks when I walk through town with my little girl and men especially follow me and really scare me, is that normal? I am trying to work out my gender if i am bi or lesbian I am either of those but trying to figure out which one I am as it's confusing me.
I tell myself oh your ugly your disgusting and all that due to previously being raped and abused. It left scars and it hurts even talking about this but i need to open up and explain why i am judging my own body and if i can ever love myself again or ill be staying and hating my looks and body. I find it difficult to open up about the rape and if im at fault due to being told you should of pushed him of you and defended yourself, but that person is only trying to hurt me. Is it stupid i got bullied for being 'thin' and being small? I got bullied all through yr 7-9 because I was too skinny and was flat chested. boys kept bullying me calling me flat chested which wasn't nice. Please if you read this be kind. hugs
I also compared myself to other girls who were getting attention from boys because they weren't thin like me and i kept getting bullied and told to put weight on to be like them even though it was hard for me to cope with as i had life issues. I am just wanting to tell my story as i need to be heard that bullying someone for their size or weight isnt allowed it's body shaming and it isnt right so if you want to pick on someone then dont say anything think treat them how you would want to be treated. bullying and body shaming is NOT allowed dont DO it
For the past few years, I’ve had problems with my insecurities and bad self esteem. I also feel veryyyy ugly sometimes. Could this be because I’m insecure or just actually have some huge face flaws?
I’m sometimes worried about going outside to the shops or for a walk because of my face, so I wear a mask to hide it.
Does anyone think things like a better haircut or makeup will improve my confidence and how I look, or will the change just be like getting something new but things going back to normal after a while (insecure).
I am a ballet dancer. If you don't know it already the world of ballet is full of thin people. They all have nice long legs and beautiful arms. I feel like I will never reach these expectations. I keep watching all these videos full of perfect bodies and that makes me feel depressed. I love ballet and I want to be a professional dancer.