Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Self-Harm Click this notice to reveal the content. So, everything kind of took over earlier today, and I couldn't concentrate because my subconsciousness, or my other consciousness, was telling me that i was messing up, and one of my teachers got slightly annoyed at me (for being on my phone, when i was doing a survey FOR school), and my other consciousness pounced on that and it was out of control so I ended up having to self-harm to ground myself and focus. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheOriginalAxel Posted October 19, 2022 Share Posted October 19, 2022 10 minutes ago, Emberfrost12 said: So, everything kind of took over earlier today, and I couldn't concentrate because my subconsciousness, or my other consciousness, was telling me that i was messing up, and one of my teachers got slightly annoyed at me (for being on my phone, when i was doing a survey FOR school), and my other consciousness pounced on that and it was out of control so I ended up having to self-harm to ground myself and focus. Hey @Emberfrost12 I've been through exactly the same thing but self harm is Never the answer. @Monsoon could you please offer some advice on this situation? MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 1 minute ago, TheOriginalAxel said: Hey @Emberfrost12 I've been through exactly the same thing but self harm is Never the answer. @Monsoon could you please offer some advice on this situation? I know but there was nothing else I could do, and it mostly worked, i just couldn't deal with one part of my brain telling me i'm worthless, another trying to show me how i could accidentally kill all my friends in a car crash, and yet another telling me that i made a massive mistake and should just cry or throw something. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 3 minutes ago, TheOriginalAxel said: Hey @Emberfrost12 I've been through exactly the same thing but self harm is Never the answer. @Monsoon could you please offer some advice on this situation? It hid my reply I think monsoon's away MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheOriginalAxel Posted October 19, 2022 Share Posted October 19, 2022 2 minutes ago, Emberfrost12 said: It hid my reply I think monsoon's away He commented on a topic that I'm following quite recently but idk. Maybe @Blondie or @Harper could help MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 Just now, TheOriginalAxel said: He commented on a topic that I'm following quite recently but idk. Maybe @Blondie or @Harper could help I saw that, but his away status just got set. Who knows. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 Just now, TheOriginalAxel said: He commented on a topic that I'm following quite recently but idk. Maybe @Blondie or @Harper could help There are two newer ones, @Aurora and @Luie, as well. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheOriginalAxel Posted October 19, 2022 Share Posted October 19, 2022 1 minute ago, Emberfrost12 said: There are two newer ones, @Aurora and @Luie, as well. Well hopefully we can get you the support and advice that you need. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 Just now, TheOriginalAxel said: Well hopefully we can get you the support and advice that you need. Yep. Worst part about it is that even though i know i'm crashing, I feel perfectly fine. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 Anyway, i'll be around later I should proooobably get back to class work MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheOriginalAxel Posted October 19, 2022 Share Posted October 19, 2022 1 minute ago, Emberfrost12 said: Anyway, i'll be around later I should proooobably get back to class work If it's making you feel like this, ask your teacher if you cam step out of the class for a bit MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 2 minutes ago, Emberfrost12 said: Anyway, i'll be around later I should proooobably get back to class work Never mind the drill presses are all being used :( MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheOriginalAxel Posted October 19, 2022 Share Posted October 19, 2022 Just now, Emberfrost12 said: Never mind the drill presses are all being used :( I'm guessing it's woodwork or carpentry MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 Just now, TheOriginalAxel said: I'm guessing it's woodwork or carpentry Yep :) I'm making another cat MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheOriginalAxel Posted October 19, 2022 Share Posted October 19, 2022 1 minute ago, Emberfrost12 said: Yep :) I'm making another cat You're obsessed. I swear it. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 Just now, TheOriginalAxel said: You're obsessed. I swear it. I've only made two!!!!!!!! (But i wood make more if i had time) (Get it? Wood?) MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheOriginalAxel Posted October 19, 2022 Share Posted October 19, 2022 2 minutes ago, Emberfrost12 said: I've only made two!!!!!!!! (But i wood make more if i had time) (Get it? Wood?) 1 MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 1 minute ago, TheOriginalAxel said: Anyway, we're getting off topic MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheOriginalAxel Posted October 19, 2022 Share Posted October 19, 2022 Just now, Emberfrost12 said: Anyway, we're getting off topic How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 1 minute ago, TheOriginalAxel said: How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood A woodchuck would chuck as much wood as a woodchuck could chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheOriginalAxel Posted October 19, 2022 Share Posted October 19, 2022 1 minute ago, Emberfrost12 said: A woodchuck would chuck as much wood as a woodchuck could chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood A wood chuck would chuck about 700lbs of wood on a good day with the wind at his back. Or at least that's what my Alexa told me last week 1 MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 19, 2022 Author Share Posted October 19, 2022 Just now, TheOriginalAxel said: A wood chuck would chuck about 700lbs of wood on a good day with the wind at his back. Or at least that's what my Alexa told me last week LMAO MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ditch the Label Staff Blondie Posted October 20, 2022 Ditch the Label Staff Share Posted October 20, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Self-Harm Click this notice to reveal the content. 13 hours ago, Emberfrost12 said: So, everything kind of took over earlier today, and I couldn't concentrate because my subconsciousness, or my other consciousness, was telling me that i was messing up, and one of my teachers got slightly annoyed at me (for being on my phone, when i was doing a survey FOR school), and my other consciousness pounced on that and it was out of control so I ended up having to self-harm to ground myself and focus. Hey there, how are you doing today? Were you able to tell the teacher that you were doing school work? I can imagine how frustrating this must have been. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 20, 2022 Author Share Posted October 20, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Self-Harm Click this notice to reveal the content. 9 hours ago, Blondie said: Hey there, how are you doing today? Were you able to tell the teacher that you were doing school work? I can imagine how frustrating this must have been. Today was a ton better. She would've said it didn't matter and I didn't want to escalate that conversation MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emberfrost12 Posted October 20, 2022 Author Share Posted October 20, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Self-Harm Click this notice to reveal the content. 12 minutes ago, Emberfrost12 said: Today was a ton better. She would've said it didn't matter and I didn't want to escalate that conversation But while it was better, it still wasn't great. I just want to give in, I know i don't have the strength to fight everything off, and i'm going to have to give in. The question is, how long do i try? Do I give in now and make it easier on myself, or do I keep fighting and give in when there's no other option? It's that or I become a different person who doesn't have these problems, and has a purpose, or I just stay myself and go nowhere in life. I know it's kind of weird, because I should want to be living just for the sake of living, but really, I need something to live FOR and I don't know what that is. Also i've always had this strange idea that my body is not my own, which could be from dysphoria, or it could not, but for some reason I feel like my subconsciousness is another person who's just given up on taking my body back and just wants to help me, if that makes any sense? And part of the idea of getting rid of my personality/becoming neutral is that it would give my subconsciousness an opportunity to take my body back? I know it doesn't make any sense, but that's what i've been thinking. Idk MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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