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The way people can drop litter on the floor annoys me, went on holiday with my dad Steve and we were paddle boarding and I collected so much plastic and rubbish which is so frustrating because fish, and birds have lives 😑 too so why try to *make them better* by littering if your ao eager to harm the planet your living on then I'm.sorry but please do what's right ✅😀
I'm fed up with my year being so racist and homophobic and making jokes about religion that really aren't funny at all. And I approach people but they just laugh and say it's our way of banter. And I get that but it's not banter when it's taken that one step too far like they need to learn when to stop.
Thanks for letting me rant!
everything seems to be crumbling around me right now and im not sure how to deal with it. i was recently sexually and mentally used and abused by a long term family friend and am dealing with the PTSD and related trauma as well as dealing with my dad being a massive prick to me and my mum he is emotionally abusive he punches holes in walls damages my stuff and bullies me. for example his sense of humor is odd at the best of times so whenever he tells a joke i dont understand he screams at me and makes me feel like the scum of the earth he also exploits my trust issues to try and make people feel sorry for him. I flinch when people touch me without announcing it first because of events previously mentioned and i dont let anyone apart from my mother get close to me and today he poked me in the face when i was concentrating on a show i was watching and when i flinched and accidentally hit the wall he then berated me and laughed at me when i was in pain and acted like i had mortally wounded him. he seems to have mum wrapped around his little finger too as he constantly fat shames her and verbally abuses her and she just runs back to him every single time. i want to run away and the only thing thats stopping my is the fact that i dont want to leave mum alone with an asshole like him.
i am so overwhelmed.
I dont know about you but I feel like giving up all the time. So much is happening at the same time. Its so overwhelming. i just start thinking about every little thing and i get even sadder. I dont know what to say or what to think anymore. Time goes so fast. I am so scared of what might happen in the future. Suddenly its summer. Suddenly i have 3 projects due to tomorrow. I am tired. I cant talk to anyone. Everytime I think about something I get sad for no reason at all.
Ive lived in the same city for about 9 years and now im moving 2-3 h away. I was sure i had a good amount of friends, but now, this summer, almost noone has talked to me. I have 2 friends who have wanted to hang out. A few girls from my class said they would host a sending away party for me, but now they dont talk to me. Ive felt so alone for months now. Because of my moms job, i havent seen her a lot either. Everything i do feels wrong. Im scared of going to a new school with new people, cuz i dont exactly fit in. Talking about my problems and feelings feels like im doing it for attention. Im always confused and angry with myself. Ive ruined 3 friend/relationships this year by having feelings. Im scared i wont make it through this year.