Yes everyone is amazing

My family used to tell me that it was illegal to turn on the interior car lights while someone was driving. They said if I did the cops would pull us over! Took me 16 years to find out it was a lie!!

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No worries! If you need more support, you know where we are :)

of course and yeah thanks, mental illness isn't very acceptable with my dad specifically so it's never felt right to express my feelings because I feel like they won't understand, which they most likely won't. For example, in February 2019 my parents were fighting for a while, and a little bit after that was over, I had a breakdown in front of my mom, just collapsed on the floor and started sobbing. it's alarming because I don't cry much, I've never seen the reason why I needed to dwell on tears, but sometimes I was just so overwhelmed that that was the only way I could react. my mom wanted an answer to why I was crying, but I didn't know why either, and she kept trying to get an answer which made me feel worse. eventually after a long while she left me alone. not too soon after that, she made me go to virtual therapy for 2 years. I had a counselor I trusted very much in middle school, or 8th grade, I should say. I'm sad I can't reach her because I moved to another area from her, and if I must be frank I don't trust any of the counselors in my new school, I think a lot of people here are racist, because there aren't many Hispanics here and whenever they see one they're shouting stereotypes and the counselors show their subtle but obvious signs how they're picking on me just because I made a joke the same person next to me made, but somehow I'm in the wrong for it and not them? no, I don't think I could talk with them without getting upset. I would like to talk because I'm a rambler as you can already tell but I'm glad your willing to listen to me

I am also not sure if they will continue making fun of me, but what i know is i think my school friends that i usually hang out with found out about it already, but idk if they really know, but if they know, the good thing is it's the weekend so I'm not going back to school so fast yet. So, it's Someone(that i usually hang out with at school) posted a story( conversation ) on her second account (which is more private account) that includes another friend of mine saying " i think a lot of people had seen it already" then the one posted the story said " if xx knows that i have seen it" "I'm so dead" (she covered it so i can't see what she wrote but I think it's a name, so yea xx) then the person says " haha who knows" then the person posted the story sent two voice message, and the other person said "who knows, it haven't even started but already ended" "sure enough is a name of my friend's wife" I could say I'm doing better, but I have gained a lot of weight:( But, one of the boys were away today at school, so i had thought of otherwise ( homeschool) , things were more peaceful, i can't really decide whether to quit school, but If i do quit I'll miss all the highschool moments. It depends on how is the situation when the boys are back here. Or if my friends will understand me

As far as I know the rest of her family is semi okay with it & a lot of them did know. I doubt if they will be able to influence her but there is always a chance I guess... She is very strong so I believe she will stand her ground. Everyone says time will change things... I truly hope so. There is a lot of advantages, it would change the whole dynamic of our relationship if we could be freely out & freely us & love each other freely, not just in private. Also it would take a lot of strain off both our mental health. I am a severe depression & anxiety sufferer & she loves to overthink so we always had a challenge in hiding our true selves when around her family because it brought an element of being untrue to each other even in our private lives, which caused a lot of strain & overthinking & led to arguments. So I would say that the biggest advantage is us, just being us, without hiding it. It would make so many things easier....