I don’t know! Bc I have know them from kindergarden! And we have always been bff, but in 2019 we didn’t talk to much, but when we started in the same class in 2021 we became bff again. But she had changed so much! I don’t know Who they are now. Who are they and why are they like this! Like it annoying to think about the old days when they wasn’t a little of a pick me, and when they hadn’t this personality!
Hi everyone, I thought I would give. an update
Initially I ended things completely, I told him he had to go and explore this side of himself and I needed to be single as he had hurt me so much. He continued to call me every day about how sorry he was, but was also still messaging boys as I later found out, the has happened on two occasions in the last month. I feel upset by that but also cant be as I did tell him to do that. When confronted, he says that he knew always and still does know that what he wants is to be with me and that his head is just confused with everyone encouraging him to explore his sexuality and also with a new sense of liberation and freedom being open about his feelings, which I do understand but it is extremely upsetting for me. In the last week or so he has committed fully to getting me back, has deleted social media, and we have had some really mature and good conversations about when and why the messaging happened. I do believe he is a good person and I want to believe that this wouldn't happen again if we were together, but the fact that I ended it and he was messaging people within hours/days makes me concerned it would, but then again that was in an emotional, confusing and alcohol fuelled time of the situation. I find comfort in speaking to him as I feel better trying to understand what he did as I know it was nothing to do with me and when I see him so upset I feel relived in a way that he obviously still cares a lot and wants to fix this, but I feel very in the middle and feel like I need to make one of two decisions to either try to re build and move on completely, or end It and I cant decide what's best my head and heart say differently :( I cannot face taking the risk of this ever happening to me again but I also believe he loves me and that it wouldn't happen again. But even when I see him I am miserable and so hurt that I cant help but hold him to it and bring it up againadn again which I am aware means it will never work, It is going to be a very long hard process but wondering if anyone has any opinions/advice :(
Thank u as always
@Monsoon I think I'd just like some advice on moving on in this situation, and I should be all set to go. :)
Once again, thank you so so much for your kind words and your help! It really means a lot to me. :)