Madeleine_357 Posted May 20 Share Posted May 20 So much has happened. First off, he's been a lot creepier. A few weeks ago, I was standing at my locker, and my friend was standing with me and he BACKS UP INTO ME AND STANDS WITH HIS BACK PRESSED AGAINST ME WHILE I'M STANDING AT MY LOCKER AND HE'S TALKING TO SOMEONE. My friend saw all of this and was standing there like "wtf" the whole time. He stood there WITHOUT MOVING AWAY for like 2 minutes. I just went about my buisness and kind was like frozen not knowing whether to move away or not. The longer I sit and think about it, the weirder it gets. Any normal person would have felt the contact and moved away. Why didn't he move away when he felt the contact? Why did he just stand there? There were other places in the hallway that he could have stood and talked to someone other than pressed against me. he stares at me a lot. What hurts is, most of my friends either A. don't believe he's being creepy and think I'm delusional, B. Don't understand, C. think i'm just obsessed with and simping over him and that this is just a crush or D. Don't care. one friend is even all of the above. My only friend who does understand, I can tell is getting sick of my rants. Even if she won't admit it. I just don't want my one or two other friends to get sick of my ranting too. The one friend who is getting sick of my ranting knows this is a big part of my life. It hurts seeing him be able to talk to other people, even people he doesn't know or people who he's never really talked to before but he doesn't talk to me. I don't get words, I get staring and listening to my conversations, and glances, and sitting right behind me on the bus, and walking like 5 feet behind me when we walk home from the bus stop. That's what I get. It hurts because it's like he talks to every single person except for me. I think he might just be scared, because maybe he thinks we'll have to have an emotional talk if we talk? idk. There have been multpile times where it's looked like he's going to come up to say something to me, but thinks better of it. It makes it worse how I'm basically on my own now, because I can't really talk to my friends about it anymore. It's like my emotions are trapped inside me and I can barely even cry to let them out. I asked my friend today if she thought I was delusional and she said "well yes and no. I don't really know. And honestly, I don't really care." then she shrugged and gave a small laugh. She pretty much just said she doesn't care at all about what I'm dealing with. Everyone's saying to drop him, but I can't until I know for sure he doesn't care about me. he's acting like he's not over it, and I'm not over it either. He wouldn't be being creepy if he didn't care. I'm basically like the silly, stupid side character to everyone. It's a mask, just like HE has. I just feel like if there's anyone in the world who would understand me and be there for me all the time, it would be him. I can't move on or let him go until I know whether he still cares or not. I gave him the letter, and that basically changed nothing, I asked if he wanted to come meet daisy, who's my new puppy, and he said he couldn't cause he was going to the gym, Well. Thanks. You'd rather go to the gym than see me. Alright, He's hurting me so much right now, and no one seems to care. I don't know what to do, and my one friend who might have given me advice about this like 8 months ago doesn't know now. To her, I say the same thing every rant. I'm basically alone, and I don't know what to do. I don't want to drop him. I'm not going to drop him. But I don't know what to do. The letter made my feelings (except the crush parts) very clear and I asked him to do something. If an emotional letter won't do anything, what else is there? I don't know how much longer I can sit and watch him talk with random people and not try with me and stare instead. I don't know what any of this means. The other day his mom was walking laps around our crescent and I was sitting on my front porch, and everytime she'd walk by across the street she'd stare at me. Today I was walking my dog and she was further behind me down the street and she came up on the opposite side of the road beside me to walk to her house and I smiled waved and said hi and she did the same. His mom likes me. my brother sister and mom were coming up with ship names for me and him in the car last night, and like 30 minutes ago my brother asked if I had a bf bec he wanted to know who his future brother in law was gonna be and I asked who he thought it was gonna be and he said HIS (the guy's) name. I haven't even told any of my family I like him. I don't know what's going on. Also his brother side eyes me and eyes me everytime I see him. (Everytime I see the brother.) 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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