emnma Posted March 6 Share Posted March 6 (edited) This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Mental Illness Click this notice to reveal the content. i cant remember if i already did a post on this or not so I'm posting it again ive been homeschooled for a few weeks now and have a few friends there, but I don't really talk to any of them outside of class bc I don't really click with them. I realized how lonely I am cuz I helped a girl with her relationship and she said I was a good friend. i started crying bc I haven't heard that in so long. normally I'm ok with being alone but now I'm realizing how much its affecting me and idk what to do about it. last time I had a good friend irl everything went really badly and I had a depressive episode so ig thats why I don't connect with anyone irl now. how do I deal with that without destroying myself in the process? i want to have friends again and I want to exist without hurting myself physically and mentally but I don't think I can. i feel like nobody really likes me for who I am and just likes me for what I can do for them. i want to connect with people and be happy and go do things and be in relationships but I think I'm going to end up hurting people in the process and that just makes me feel like crap and idk what to do about it. i also did some research and now i think i have atypical depression and it really explains how I've been feeling but i don't know how to bring it up to my parents without being discredited. I was also thinking the other day about this and how its related to my screen time, and i thought that bc i barely had any presence online (besides here) or on social media or that i cant text anyone that i barely exist. it turned into a rabbit hole that im pathetic and barely exist and it just made me feel really bad about everything Edited March 6 by emnma Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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