KitouShizuka Posted April 16, 2022 Share Posted April 16, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Mental Illness, Self-Harm Click this notice to reveal the content. I really hate my life right now, and I really want to end it honestly. I don't really have much hope for the future and I will probably fail everything. I have no one to trust. I hate my family, they always betray me and lie to me and make my life miserable. And I have only a single friend, and they are only an online friend. There's definitely something wrong with me. I don't trust anyone. No one really cares about me. I just want someone who will support me and someone who I can talk to about anything, but everyone always leaves me and I don't know why. I tried to get online friend but it only makes my trust issues worse. Most of all I hate myself. I turned really weak. I used to not cry at all but now it seems like that everyday. I try to give myself discreet pain at any time possible and I'm not even good at anything. I can barely focus on my online school work and I'm just not motivated with anything anymore. I just want to trust someone, and have someone to trust, and have someone that supports me. I'm only 15, but I won't be able to be happy in three future. What's the easiest way to end my life? MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KitouShizuka Posted April 16, 2022 Author Share Posted April 16, 2022 I just feel like I don't even care about anything else anymore. I just want there to be someone who has me as the first priority and they won't betray me and I can trust them. That's the only thing I want in life at this point. But if it's me, it's impossible I think. I really don't want to live anymore MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KitouShizuka Posted April 16, 2022 Author Share Posted April 16, 2022 I want to look forward to something, or be motivated. I don't like just existing. I want to always have someone to rely on . There's no hope MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KitouShizuka Posted April 16, 2022 Author Share Posted April 16, 2022 (edited) This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Mental Illness, Self-Harm, Suicide Click this notice to reveal the content. There's nothing unique or good about me that's probably why everyone leaves or stops talking to me. There's many other people who are much better to talk to, I'm just a really boring and there's nothing to me. That's why no one really cares about me. There's no good points. I just take up space. I want to disappear. The thing I want most, is probably the strength to disappear and end it Edited April 16, 2022 by KitouShizuka MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hazard Posted April 16, 2022 Share Posted April 16, 2022 Hey, I promise that there are many other options to change things other than death. I’m going to tag in @Monsoon and @Blondie to help you out. There are people out there that care about you and want to help you (me included). Also, do you have an idea of how you want to kill yourself already? Remember, We’re here for you. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KitouShizuka Posted April 16, 2022 Author Share Posted April 16, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Hate, Mental Illness, Self-Harm, Suicide Click this notice to reveal the content. And my friends only want to talk to me when they want something from me. And my family only likes me when they get something from me. They don't care about me or my feelings, they probably won't care if I die, and I don't care if they care anyways, they betrayed me too much, almost every day MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KitouShizuka Posted April 16, 2022 Author Share Posted April 16, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Mental Illness, Suicide Click this notice to reveal the content. I'm tired. One second I am motivated and feel like I can trust someone, and the next second I want to disappear and die. I don't feel like changing like that anymore, it's easier just to end everything. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ditch the Label Staff Daisie Posted April 16, 2022 Ditch the Label Staff Share Posted April 16, 2022 Hello @KitouShizuka Welcome to the community. I have read your post and just wanted to let you know that one of our Trained Mentors will be in touch as soon as they can so they can offer some support. @Monsoon & @Blondie MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
VIVIEN_ Posted April 16, 2022 Share Posted April 16, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Mental Illness, Self-Harm Click this notice to reveal the content. 2 hours ago, KitouShizuka said: I really hate my life right now, and I really want to end it honestly. I don't really have much hope for the future and I will probably fail everything. I have no one to trust. I hate my family, they always betray me and lie to me and make my life miserable. And I have only a single friend, and they are only an online friend. There's definitely something wrong with me. I don't trust anyone. No one really cares about me. I just want someone who will support me and someone who I can talk to about anything, but everyone always leaves me and I don't know why. I tried to get online friend but it only makes my trust issues worse. Most of all I hate myself. I turned really weak. I used to not cry at all but now it seems like that everyday. I try to give myself discreet pain at any time possible and I'm not even good at anything. I can barely focus on my online school work and I'm just not motivated with anything anymore. I just want to trust someone, and have someone to trust, and have someone that supports me. I'm only 15, but I won't be able to be happy in three future. What's the easiest way to end my life? Hi, I'm really sorry you feel this way. I have a similar problem. I know ending it may seem like the best option but it isn't. If you ever need a friend I'll be here. I'd love to follow you if that alright. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hazard Posted April 17, 2022 Share Posted April 17, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Suicide Click this notice to reveal the content. Hey, I just wanted to tell you that we care about you no matter what, and that death isn’t the only way to make things better. If you have suicidal thoughts and are thinking you may try something, a) you can try making yourself wait 24 hours, and slowly keep increasing the time, b) please reach out to a helpline. They’re there to help you. Stay strong! MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KitouShizuka Posted April 18, 2022 Author Share Posted April 18, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Suicide Click this notice to reveal the content. On 4/17/2022 at 10:29 AM, Emberfrost12 said: Hey, I just wanted to tell you that we care about you no matter what, and that death isn’t the only way to make things better. If you have suicidal thoughts and are thinking you may try something, a) you can try making yourself wait 24 hours, and slowly keep increasing the time, b) please reach out to a helpline. They’re there to help you. Stay strong! I probably won't do it any time soon, I think I'm always too scared or weak to actually go through with it (sometimes I almost did it really suddenly) but everything just seems boring now. I want to live doing nothing now MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KitouShizuka Posted April 18, 2022 Author Share Posted April 18, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Mental Illness, Self-Harm Click this notice to reveal the content. On 4/16/2022 at 4:28 PM, Vivien_ said: Hi, I'm really sorry you feel this way. I have a similar problem. I know ending it may seem like the best option but it isn't. If you ever need a friend I'll be here. I'd love to follow you if that alright. Thank you. I don't know if I'll end it, but it is so many years until I can do anything about my situation and it feels like I can't take it anymore. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
VIVIEN_ Posted April 18, 2022 Share Posted April 18, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Mental Illness, Self-Harm Click this notice to reveal the content. 17 minutes ago, KitouShizuka said: Thank you. I don't know if I'll end it, but it is so many years until I can do anything about my situation and it feels like I can't take it anymore. I feel the same way, but you got to get through it until you can do something. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Monsoon Posted April 19, 2022 Share Posted April 19, 2022 Hey @KitouShizuka and @Vivien_ It's really nice to see both of you supporting each other. I just want you to know that I've sent you both separate messages to check in. Take care and speak soon. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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