willow-in-purple Posted March 18, 2022 Share Posted March 18, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Abuse, Trauma Click this notice to reveal the content. Some people have physically and emotionally abused me. That has been confirmed and real. However, when I look back at the memories, I feel no pain. The fear, anxiety, and dread in that moment dissolved into feelings of nothingness. I still live life positively and I’m not depressed. I have no negative feelings towards the people who hurt me (in fact positive feelings). These things would be very painful and scary to most, and I don’t understand why I can’t feel it. My friends (who either have been abused or seen/helped people who have been so many times) tell me I’ve been traumatized. A says that I have numbed myself, which is the reason I can’t feel. E says that it is “normalised trauma” (which isn’t an official thing). He has seen it several times before. So… why can’t I feel? It’s not trauma, it’s the exact opposite (at least to me). All of my friends think I’m in denial. Help? MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ditch the Label Staff Daisie Posted March 18, 2022 Ditch the Label Staff Share Posted March 18, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Abuse, Trauma Click this notice to reveal the content. 2 hours ago, willow-in-purple said: Some people have physically and emotionally abused me. That has been confirmed and real. However, when I look back at the memories, I feel no pain. The fear, anxiety, and dread in that moment dissolved into feelings of nothingness. I still live life positively and I’m not depressed. I have no negative feelings towards the people who hurt me (in fact positive feelings). These things would be very painful and scary to most, and I don’t understand why I can’t feel it. My friends (who either have been abused or seen/helped people who have been so many times) tell me I’ve been traumatized. A says that I have numbed myself, which is the reason I can’t feel. E says that it is “normalised trauma” (which isn’t an official thing). He has seen it several times before. So… why can’t I feel? It’s not trauma, it’s the exact opposite (at least to me). All of my friends think I’m in denial. Help? Hey Willow, I have jumped in and read your post, and I’ve tagged our trained mentors in for you, @Monsoon & @Blondie someone will reach out to you when they can! MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Monsoon Posted March 18, 2022 Share Posted March 18, 2022 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Abuse, Trauma Click this notice to reveal the content. 7 hours ago, willow-in-purple said: Some people have physically and emotionally abused me. That has been confirmed and real. However, when I look back at the memories, I feel no pain. The fear, anxiety, and dread in that moment dissolved into feelings of nothingness. I still live life positively and I’m not depressed. I have no negative feelings towards the people who hurt me (in fact positive feelings). These things would be very painful and scary to most, and I don’t understand why I can’t feel it. My friends (who either have been abused or seen/helped people who have been so many times) tell me I’ve been traumatized. A says that I have numbed myself, which is the reason I can’t feel. E says that it is “normalised trauma” (which isn’t an official thing). He has seen it several times before. So… why can’t I feel? It’s not trauma, it’s the exact opposite (at least to me). All of my friends think I’m in denial. Help? Hello @willow-in-purple Thank you for sharing this with us; it takes a lot of courage to open up about trauma, and it can be really scary facing it, but you’re doing the right thing for your well-being, and we are here to support you. I just want to check before I go ahead, are you currently safe from the abuse? MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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