justarandomperson Posted August 28, 2018 Share Posted August 28, 2018 So I'm a 18 year old guy, tbh I don't remember much beyond the past year but throughout the last couple months I've started having fantasies of being a female and each time I feel butterflies in my stomach and giddy about it. Not only that but I've started wearing sports bras underneath my normal clothes and thought of a name and I've told one person and when they call me by that name it makes me happy. I don't mind being a guy but it's just eh kinda like a 9-5 job just going through motions doing what I'm supposed to be doing. But as these fantasies kept coming I've thought I think I'd definitely be happy living the rest of my life as a female. I really don't know what's going on not gonna lie kinda scared of it all, if any of y'all can help or even just shed some light that would be great MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 28, 2018 Share Posted August 28, 2018 Hey there JustARandomPerson! Thanks for joining us on Community! I'm glad you found us! I can definitely understand how you'd want to live your fullest life! What about 'being a girl' excites you? The name, the clothes.. What other things would you want to change about your outward appearance to match up what you feel, internally? What wouldn't you be able to do as a 'boy', do you think? Thanks for sharing! -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 28, 2018 Author Share Posted August 28, 2018 I truly kind of want to change everything down from practicing on my voice to every inch of my body. I want to be cute I want to go shopping for underwear and such. And pick out nice perfumes. I don't want to be hairy like everywhere I'm not sure how to explain it well. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 28, 2018 Share Posted August 28, 2018 Heya JustARandomPerson, I can imagine it's hard to put into words, but I think that's a great start! These things that you mention-- wanting to wear clothing that brings you joy, wearing perfume, having more feminine maneurisms, and voice-- that's all about how you would like to express yourself. I don't think you're confused.. I think you know exactly what would bring you joy! Are there some things you can do, now, to help you feel more in your body? Even as a 'boy' you don't have to worry about falling into 'masculine' stereotypes-- we support you looking like you want, and doing things you want that make you happy. Check out this article on 'masculinity': https://www.ditchthelabel.org/is-it-ok-to-feel-like-a-girl/ What are you worried about, if you do behave more feminine, and ask others to call you by your desired name? -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 28, 2018 Author Share Posted August 28, 2018 I'm truly just scared about what my family will do or think and my close friends. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 28, 2018 Share Posted August 28, 2018 Hey JustARandomPerson, I can feel that it's worrying you! But know, you know yourself-- and I can see this shift is something you want/need. What's the worst thing you can imagine that they would do? Would you rather continue to sacrifice your happiness, just in case they react poorly? -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 28, 2018 Share Posted August 28, 2018 Hey JustARandomPerson, I can feel that it's worrying you! But know, you know yourself-- and I can see this shift is something you want/need. What's the worst thing you can imagine that they would do? Would you rather continue to sacrifice your happiness, just in case they react poorly? -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 28, 2018 Author Share Posted August 28, 2018 I wouldn't want to sacrifice my happiness for that I'd rather be happy MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 28, 2018 Share Posted August 28, 2018 That's amazing!! ?? So what are some things you can do (until you can make sure you're safe to tell everyone you want/need to) to continue creating your own happiness? -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 29, 2018 Author Share Posted August 29, 2018 I don't really know of what I can do until then, currently Ive started wearing a sports bra under my shirts. Idk if that's tmi or anything but that makes me feel a little better. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 29, 2018 Share Posted August 29, 2018 Heya JustARandomPerson, I do think that's a great thing you're doing! (and I don't feel like it's tmi) Would your friend who supports you be willing to go shopping with you to get other undergarments to wear? What if you bought some perfume and gave your undergarments a spritz, just so you can smell it? When you do want to come out to family/friends, here's an article that may help: https://www.ditchthelabel.org/8-tips-for-coming-out-as-trans/ And I just wanted to throw this article out here to demonstrate how gender is a spectrum... and there's a lot in between the 'male' and 'female' stereotypes: https://www.ditchthelabel.org/gender-as-a-spectrum/ I'm happy you're on the journey you're on! It's you moving toward being the best version of yourself! -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 29, 2018 Author Share Posted August 29, 2018 When do I want to come out is a hard question bc of sheer fear and nerve it could be a while MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 29, 2018 Share Posted August 29, 2018 Hey JustARandomPerson, Yeah, it may take time... but I wanted you to have the resources for when you do! It's great you have your friend, so far. I wonder if there's another person who you'd feel safe telling? Just so you start growing your support circle of people who understand what's going on, internally? -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 29, 2018 Author Share Posted August 29, 2018 I might have another friend that will understand that can help quite a bit bc she's a girl that would probably help MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 29, 2018 Share Posted August 29, 2018 That sounds like a great opportunity! Would love to know how that goes! -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 29, 2018 Author Share Posted August 29, 2018 I got all nervous but told her and she's cool with it! It makes me feel a little better right after telling someone bc I get incredibly nervous MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 29, 2018 Share Posted August 29, 2018 Oh YAY!! I'm so happy for you!!! The more support you have, the easier it will be when you tell others... I'm so glad your support system is growing! -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 29, 2018 Author Share Posted August 29, 2018 Thank youu I plan on growing it until I can tell at least one of my parents MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 29, 2018 Share Posted August 29, 2018 You're so welcome! Would love for you to keep us all updated on your progress. I believe we can all get to the point where we can live without sacrifice! -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 29, 2018 Author Share Posted August 29, 2018 I defiantly will updating MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 30, 2018 Author Share Posted August 30, 2018 I finally told my first bit of family! Well extended family my gay cousin to be exact I figured she'd understand and a little and she did ^-^ MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 30, 2018 Share Posted August 30, 2018 Oh my goodness!! Yess!!! You're awesome!! This is such amazing news! -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 30, 2018 Author Share Posted August 30, 2018 Telling her wasn't to bad however my imidiate family will take a lot longer MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willow Posted August 30, 2018 Share Posted August 30, 2018 That's definitely understandable.... but I'm glad you're not alone in this journey. Any support is powerful! -willow MultiQuote Quote This Digital Mentor Account is no longer active. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justarandomperson Posted August 30, 2018 Author Share Posted August 30, 2018 All the people I have told have been absolutely amazing and kind their support is incredibly helpful, I really thought at least a few of my friends would stop talking to me but they are true friends MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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