Confused

[Meha]

Hi! So I kinda had my first relationship start earlier this year- in May. And my boyfriend told me that he is actually bisexual. I had never considered what i would have done if I was told that. But I knew I liked him. So I did some research to try and understand him better. Somewhere along the research, I began to question myself. I had believed that I was completely straight. So all this question made me doubt myself. I just got more confused because all these feelings that come with an intimate relationship were and still are very very new to me. And a week after we had started dating he had to move (we are going to the same college though). So I was left alone with all of my feelings. I mean we would call but it was never really the same. Two months later, I was hanging out with my friends and we were all taking a nap. I opened my eyes and I felt the same proximity as I had felt with him and turned away in confusion. Since then I have been terrified of myself. I had never ever liked a girl before so what was that all about. I am so confused what this even means. Should I even be questioning myself so much? 

[Monsoon]

Hey there,

Welcome to the DTL community. I'm one of the digital mentors here and I give advice to those who reach out :) 

I can definitely see how this would be super confusing for you, especially as you're in a new relationship. It's perfectly natural and normal to question yourself. We all want to know who we are, and when something shakes that, it can be pretty unsettling for us. I'm wondering, can you tell me more about being terrified of yourself? Why is that?