Am I a bad girlfriend?

[XSnowX]

Hi, so I feel like I am too mentally unwell to even be in a relationship let alone being with myself,  I love my boyfriend he is so fantastic he fits me so well, I couldn't ask for more. 

Lately, we split up because I was in hospital and I couldn't get better, he thought it was best letting me go but now we're together again, we missed each other. I don't know why I feel like he can have such a better girlfriend  then me.

I know he can, I am so pushy, I want to make sure he's okay, I am over protective of him, is that a bad thing? With what has happened in my life I always give up hope that I am good enough for him when I can't be enough for myself. 

It's about self loving, but I know that probably won't ever happen. I wrote, my feelings about wanting to try and love myself I do self harm.but, I try and not tell my boyfriend as I feel like it will make him worry.

How do I self love myself? Of course I love my boyfriend, but I want to know if I can love myself to make my life a little easier during my relationship with my boyfriend.  I think we're.great together I love him, but I feel not good enough.

Friends bully me, they say your not good enough for him, that he can do better, but I try to hold my head high and fight them and say he can't do better. It tends to lower my confidence, not saying I had some before but it does.

It brings emotions back from the past, it hurts me inside but I am just down and done with the crap I'm taking from others. I'm standing my ground, I'm talking about it, so here you go. 

Maybe things can change? 

[Monsoon]

4 hours ago, Gurlllll said:

Hi, so I feel like I am too mentally unwell to even be in a relationship let alone being with myself,  I love my boyfriend he is so fantastic he fits me so well, I couldn't ask for more. 

Lately, we split up because I was in hospital and I couldn't get better, he thought it was best letting me go but now we're together again, we missed each other. I don't know why I feel like he can have such a better girlfriend  then me.

I know he can, I am so pushy, I want to make sure he's okay, I am over protective of him, is that a bad thing? With what has happened in my life I always give up hope that I am good enough for him when I can't be enough for myself. 

It's about self loving, but I know that probably won't ever happen. I wrote, my feelings about wanting to try and love myself I do self harm.but, I try and not tell my boyfriend as I feel like it will make him worry.

How do I self love myself? Of course I love my boyfriend, but I want to know if I can love myself to make my life a little easier during my relationship with my boyfriend.  I think we're.great together I love him, but I feel not good enough.

Friends bully me, they say your not good enough for him, that he can do better, but I try to hold my head high and fight them and say he can't do better. It tends to lower my confidence, not saying I had some before but it does.

It brings emotions back from the past, it hurts me inside but I am just down and done with the crap I'm taking from others. I'm standing my ground, I'm talking about it, so here you go. 

Maybe things can change? 

Hey there,

I'm really pleased that you're opening up here and feeling able to talk about it. Talking is the best way to move forward when we are hurting emotionally. I just want you to know that I've sent you a message to check in on you. Take care and speak soon. 

[XSnowX]

10 hours ago, Monsoon said:

Hey there,

I'm really pleased that you're opening up here and feeling able to talk about it. Talking is the best way to move forward when we are hurting emotionally. I just want you to know that I've sent you a message to check in on you. Take care and speak soon. 

Hello, thank you. Means a lot

[Lillyx]

hi. your not a bad girlfriend. i some times think i am so i can agree where your coming from. hello anyway