Nala Posted December 9, 2023 Share Posted December 9, 2023 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Disordered Eating, Hate, Heavy emotion, Self-Harm, Suicide Click this notice to reveal the content. Recently, I’ve been being assessed for possibly having an eating disorder. I’m not sure which one yet. These past few weeks has been very stressful for me, my mum is having to make my meals. Which makes me upset because I have no idea how many calories are in my meals, but I know it’s a lot. I feel like I’m getting really fat, and I hate it when the people I see has to weigh me. I badly want to now j’y weight, but I know that il trigger myself into not eating again. I sometimes hide my food that my mum gives me so I pretend I have eaten it. I feel so guilty after eating food too. It’s horrible. To the point we’re I self harm, idk if I should tell anybody that I’m still self harming, because, my legs are covered in scabs and idk if it’s going to start moving somewhere else on my body. I hate looking in the mirror at myself. I keep getting the urge to make myself vomit to like ‘control’ my weight. I think I may try doing it soon. Idk. Off topic, but I tried to end my life the other day, I want to try attempt to take my life again. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Megs- Posted December 9, 2023 Share Posted December 9, 2023 (edited) Hello, @Nala! I see things are very upsetting for you right now and I wanted to let you know that I hear you. You do not have to suffer alone and us at DTL care about you and your well-being. Firstly, I wanted to check in and ask, I saw you posted something very scary at the end of your post and wanted to ask, are you currently safe right now? If not, please check out this post the community manage harper made, your safety is important and if you are not feeling safe you deserve to be cared about and you deserve to be supported. Regarding your eating issues, can I ask, how long this has been going on for? I hear your worries regarding calories, I suffer with disoriented eating and feeling these things is a way to cope, am I right in thinking you could be feeling insecure about yourself? If you are, that’s okay. I know a support mentor who can help you with this I will tag her below. Have you had any support regarding this? I am not sure where you are located in the world but how would it feel reaching out to your doctor, they would be able to talk to you about this and could refer you to specific support people who have specialist training in this area, how does that feel? You are not alone, Nala. I am of course not trained but I do care about you and will support you the best i possibly could. Sending you so many hugs ! I have posted the thread I tagged but it has to be approved, if you head over to the ‘mental health and well-being topic area’ you’ll see a post regarding if you’re feeling unsafe, click on there and it will show helplines that can help you in the way I can’t, I am sending so many strong and positive thoughts your way, hugs . @Digital Mentor @Duckie Edited December 9, 2023 by Megs- 1 MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Ditch the Label Staff Blondie Posted December 9, 2023 Ditch the Label Staff Share Posted December 9, 2023 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Disordered Eating, Hate, Heavy emotion, Self-Harm, Suicide Click this notice to reveal the content. 5 hours ago, Nala said: Recently, I’ve been being assessed for possibly having an eating disorder. I’m not sure which one yet. These past few weeks has been very stressful for me, my mum is having to make my meals. Which makes me upset because I have no idea how many calories are in my meals, but I know it’s a lot. I feel like I’m getting really fat, and I hate it when the people I see has to weigh me. I badly want to now j’y weight, but I know that il trigger myself into not eating again. I sometimes hide my food that my mum gives me so I pretend I have eaten it. I feel so guilty after eating food too. It’s horrible. To the point we’re I self harm, idk if I should tell anybody that I’m still self harming, because, my legs are covered in scabs and idk if it’s going to start moving somewhere else on my body. I hate looking in the mirror at myself. I keep getting the urge to make myself vomit to like ‘control’ my weight. I think I may try doing it soon. Idk. Off topic, but I tried to end my life the other day, I want to try attempt to take my life again. Hi @Nala Thank you for reaching out and I'm so sorry you're feeling so low and are thinking about ending your life. Your safety is really important to us and we would like to help you through this. Firstly, can I check that you're currently safe? I'm going to list some crisis details below so you have them to hand. (UK) The Samaritans - 116 123 (This is a free service that operates 24/7) (USA) Suicide and Crisis Lifeline - 988 (This is a free service that operates 24/7. You can call or text) A list of worldwide crisis lines can be found here: https://www.befrienders.org There's an app I can recommend called Stay Alive - it has safety plans to make sure you don’t harm yourself and you might find it helpful. You can also call the police if you feel at risk. Can I ask if anyone close to you knows how you are feeling? We're here for you; you’re not alone and we can work through this together. I have also responded to your message on confidential support. MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Digital Mentor Luie Posted December 10, 2023 Digital Mentor Share Posted December 10, 2023 Heyy @Nala, I wanted to check in. How are you doing now? MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nala Posted December 10, 2023 Author Share Posted December 10, 2023 12 hours ago, Megs- said: Hello, @Nala! I see things are very upsetting for you right now and I wanted to let you know that I hear you. You do not have to suffer alone and us at DTL care about you and your well-being. Firstly, I wanted to check in and ask, I saw you posted something very scary at the end of your post and wanted to ask, are you currently safe right now? If not, please check out this post the community manage harper made, your safety is important and if you are not feeling safe you deserve to be cared about and you deserve to be supported. Regarding your eating issues, can I ask, how long this has been going on for? I hear your worries regarding calories, I suffer with disoriented eating and feeling these things is a way to cope, am I right in thinking you could be feeling insecure about yourself? If you are, that’s okay. I know a support mentor who can help you with this I will tag her below. Have you had any support regarding this? I am not sure where you are located in the world but how would it feel reaching out to your doctor, they would be able to talk to you about this and could refer you to specific support people who have specialist training in this area, how does that feel? You are not alone, Nala. I am of course not trained but I do care about you and will support you the best i possibly could. Sending you so many hugs ! I have posted the thread I tagged but it has to be approved, if you head over to the ‘mental health and well-being topic area’ you’ll see a post regarding if you’re feeling unsafe, click on there and it will show helplines that can help you in the way I can’t, I am sending so many strong and positive thoughts your way, hugs . @Digital Mentor @Duckie Hi @Megs- I am currently safe right now..I don’t feel safe though if yk what I mean? I have checked out the post that Harper had made before, but I will have another look at it! My eating issues has been going on for a good couple of months, and I’m now getting help for it. But the problem is, I don’t want help, and I’m actually hating myself more knowing that I am getting fatter. I’m sorry that you suffer with disoriented eating, it just suck. Yes, you are right in thinking that. I’ve always even insecure about the way my body looks, as well as the way my face looks. I have had support regarding my eating issues and I’m now getting support for my mental health, I’m not going to go to much into context, but I ended up I hospital because I tried to do something, and I have been recently seen by a physiotherapist. Thank you , I have been feeling quite alone rn, so thank you for reassuring me that I’m not alone Thank you MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nala Posted December 10, 2023 Author Share Posted December 10, 2023 4 minutes ago, Luie said: Heyy @Nala, I wanted to check in. How are you doing now? Hi, I’m doing terrible atm. 1 MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nala Posted December 10, 2023 Author Share Posted December 10, 2023 This post has been flagged with warnings, as follows: Disordered Eating, Hate, Heavy emotion, Self-Harm, Suicide Click this notice to reveal the content. 11 hours ago, Blondie said: Hi @Nala Thank you for reaching out and I'm so sorry you're feeling so low and are thinking about ending your life. Your safety is really important to us and we would like to help you through this. Firstly, can I check that you're currently safe? I'm going to list some crisis details below so you have them to hand. (UK) The Samaritans - 116 123 (This is a free service that operates 24/7) (USA) Suicide and Crisis Lifeline - 988 (This is a free service that operates 24/7. You can call or text) A list of worldwide crisis lines can be found here: https://www.befrienders.org There's an app I can recommend called Stay Alive - it has safety plans to make sure you don’t harm yourself and you might find it helpful. You can also call the police if you feel at risk. Can I ask if anyone close to you knows how you are feeling? We're here for you; you’re not alone and we can work through this together. I have also responded to your message on confidential support. Hi, no problem! I am currently safe, but I don’t really feel safe even though I have people around me. If that makes sense at all? Thank you for the crisis details. My mum knows how I’m feeling, probably because I had to go to hospital the other day, she doesn’t know everything about what I’m feeling though. Thank you MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Digital Mentor Luie Posted December 10, 2023 Digital Mentor Share Posted December 10, 2023 41 minutes ago, Nala said: Hi, I’m doing terrible atm. I have messaged you on CS @Nala 1 MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Digital Mentor Luie Posted January 13 Digital Mentor Share Posted January 13 Heyy @Nala, A very happy new year! Can't believe it's 2024 already. Just wanted to check in and see how you're doing, how did the holidays go for you? MultiQuote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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