TinyTurtles Posted January 31 Share Posted January 31 So my school is having a prom. The last time I went to a school dance was in 8th grade (~3 yrs ago) and I was working the whole time because I was the president of the school and therefore was in charge of putting together and overseeing the dance itself. Now this dance is a big dance. And it’s a dance for homeschoolers, like me. Seeing other teenagers in person is ridiculously awkward enough in and of itself, but make them all socially awkward and well you just created the perfect recipe for my own personal circle of hell :) HOWEVER- My mom really wants me to go, and she says it’ll be really good for me. I feel bad because I’m really not excited. I feel like every girl would jump at the opportunity to get dolled up and go to prom, but it just doesn’t do that for me. Nobody’s gonna ask me, and I don’t have a crush on anyone so it’s not like I wanna ask someone I like out. I feel like I’m missing this huge milestone that everyone else is excited about and I’m just not. My mom suggested that I go with my kinda friend that I was super close to in 8th grade. He admittedly had a crush on me but he was respectful of my priority being school and just overall not really being interested in dating in general. I thought I liked him too, but it turns out I really just wanted to stay best friends even after we went to high school. We were still really really REALLY close friends throughout 9th grade, and kinda fell out of touch in 10th forward. We still talk occasionally but not nearly as much as we used to. My parents would tease us relentlessly and I think that’s why my mom wants me to go with him. I told her that it’d be weird if I just texted him out of the blue asking him to prom and the implications would be weird and all of that. She simply didn’t understand how that’d be weird. I also tried to explain to her just how anxious even thinking about being at a big party full of teenagers makes me, and how I’m not as social as I used to be, but she didn’t understand that either. After rationalizing that id probably have a great time after I get there and that my friend would be really laid back and chill, I wound up texting my guy friend and catching up, and I casually mentioned that there was prom for my school coming up and that I was thinking about going. I told him that he’d be my first pick if I decided to go after all, and he took it really well and said to keep him posted. I still don’t know if I want to go, but I really feel like I have to and if I don’t then I’m depriving my mom of the experience of going prom shopping and stuff with me because she really wants to. I think it’s pretty cool though that if I go I get to go with my guy friend. He’s really cool, and I really miss him. We used to watch Marvel movies together and he gave the best hugs and cuddles because he’s really tall (6”6) and I’m really short (5”1) and he honestly knows so much about me i just feel so calm when I’m with him. I know we’ll just pick up where we left off as if we never stopped talking just like always. He told me he was thinking of me and hoped I’d text so he could put my contact back in since he got a new phone and he’s just overall really sweet. I really love being around him and I know I’m gonna have a good time if I go with him. He’s seriously my best friend. Plus, every school dance I’ve ever been to, he was my date, so we’d kinda get to keep up our tradition of going as friends and it’s kinda cool. I really just don’t know whether to go or not. On one hand I’d love to go with my friend because we’ll have lots of fun as usual, but thinking about being in a large room with a bunch of teenagers makes me tired and I haven’t even said I’m gonna go yet. Plus there’ll be d a n c i n g. And Dino can’t dance y’all. what should I do??? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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