I think I'm may be Bi but idk anymore.

[Obamaland]

I didn't think a trigger warning is needed but I will give a quick warning this does dive into some sexual topics.  (I've added this later but I'm a Virgin btw).

My whole life I've been straight, but something has changed and idk why. Last year was one of the first times I've had bi sexual thoughts. But strangely enough it went away after two weeks and I was back to my normal self. Recently I'd guess 80 days ago I started to have bi thoughts again I kinda just wrote it off though since it happened every now and then. But it hasn't stopped and its scary since I've never wanted to be a member of the LGBT community. I'd say I've had 300 to 500 straight fantasys or pornos which have all worked to say in the most non NSFW way possible. (I've never watched gay or bi porn) . But recently it been different I've had a hard time getting finished when watching porn or fantasizing. And have tested the waters to see if same sex fantasy worked and it did even faster. Also I've felt an attraction to some people of the same sex more recently. I'm thinking I'm bi, but I could be gay too since idk how I'm supposed to feel when looking at the opposite sex. Anyhow I'd really appreciate help with this and I'll answer any questions you have.

[Blondie]

4 hours ago, Obamaland said:

I didn't think a trigger warning is needed but I will give a quick warning this does dive into some sexual topics.  (I've added this later but I'm a Virgin btw).

My whole life I've been straight, but something has changed and idk why. Last year was one of the first times I've had bi sexual thoughts. But strangely enough it went away after two weeks and I was back to my normal self. Recently I'd guess 80 days ago I started to have bi thoughts again I kinda just wrote it off though since it happened every now and then. But it hasn't stopped and its scary since I've never wanted to be a member of the LGBT community. I'd say I've had 300 to 500 straight fantasys or pornos which have all worked to say in the most non NSFW way possible. (I've never watched gay or bi porn) . But recently it been different I've had a hard time getting finished when watching porn or fantasizing. And have tested the waters to see if same sex fantasy worked and it did even faster. Also I've felt an attraction to some people of the same sex more recently. I'm thinking I'm bi, but I could be gay too since idk how I'm supposed to feel when looking at the opposite sex. Anyhow I'd really appreciate help with this and I'll answer any questions you have.

Hi there, I’m Blondie, one of the support mentors.

Firstly it’s very common for people to question and explore their attractions. Sometimes it can be because societally it can be considered taboo to be same sex attracted and that adds excitement to exploring this.

Also, lots of people are pretty fluid with their attractions and this can change over our lifetime - whether this is sexual attraction or romantic.

Ultimately there’s no rush to define exactly who you are - maybe remaining open to potential attractions is the way forward right now.

Even if we were to fast forward through your life and ultimately you felt like you were straight, it doesn’t invalidate your feelings now.

How does that sound?