I thought I might give a complete account. So, here we go.
1) When I was six-ish my teacher essentially told me I wasn't good enough for her. At that school there were twelve people in elementary. That's twelve people in six grades, and I really did not have any friends I actually liked.
2) I may have tried suicide as a way out when I was eight or nine. I don't know why that didn't raise any red flags for anyone, but it didn't
3) In fourth grade, I moved from the U.S. to Canada. I punched someone who is currently my friend that year. That year I also made two friends.
4) In fifth grade, I bullied a grade six because I saw her as a challenge to my friendship with someone. I didn't realize I had bullied her until long after
5) In grade six, I got bullied by two other sixes, while not realizing it was happening, because I thought was in equal power. I started self-harming. One of my close friends revealed his suicidal thought/feelings to me.
6) Whelp, I'm a grade seven now, and...it's been a long year, but relatively good. I mean, my bar isn't high for a good year, but it's been better