He broke up with me a few days ago because we argued too muc,h because I get upset over small things, and that I always seem to get annoyed and stuff. We've talked and gone on good terms and agreed to become friends when we both move on. But I dont know how to and I just keep thinking about him and don't want him to be with anyone else. What do I do? I want to be friends with him but obiovusly, we don't know what's going to happen in the future, perhaps we'll be back but idk. These thoughts just kills me

Hi @avabean. -- I can see you and @TheToaster765 are having a good conversation here. I just wanted to add that if you would like to also speak with a Support Mentor about what's on your mind, then you're always welcome to get in touch via Confidential Support (https://forums.ditchthelabel.org/support)

Thank you for responding, I just have been feeling so alone in this. I used to be able to rationalize through this sadness to make myself feel better, but I have slipped away from that and I don’t know what to do. I was depressed in middle school, but kept telling myself that high school would be different and I would find myself. Now I have no friends, and no more hope. I have no energy ever anymore, which I guess the medicine can help with. However, I really am scared that I am not going to be happy. I know it’s super cliche to say this but I don’t want to be sad all the time anymore. I would be fine if it was at least once every few days, anything less would be better. Right now I just can’t find any joy. Like when my mom offered to take me to any store in the mall a couple of days ago and buy me something, I just felt so drained and asked to go home. My dad bought us fireworks for the upcoming holiday, which he has never done before, and even offered to let me light one that night. I just said I was tired and sat on my phone in my room for the whole afternoon. I can’t even have the lights on anymore, and the room is a mess. I can’t bring myself to do basic tasks for myself anymore, I’m just in a super dependent state where I can’t be left alone and I am not allowed to shut the door of my room anymore. I know medication can give me more energy, but I don’t know if I can actually get myself to do things and enjoy life if I am not happier. Sorry if this is a lot, I just can’t really say this to my mom because I don’t want her to worry even more.

I took antideppressents for about 2 years (stopped about a month or 2 ago for reasons I won't explain right now). It definitely helped me over those two years. Made me feel emotions for once. Actually want to do things a little bit. Every one of those things that you said, I experienced then and still do now. But the antideppressents did help with that. Did it work 100%? Not at all. I still felt depressed most days. But less than I would have if I didn't take my meds. Probably a good 40% for me which is enough to keep me alive. However, just like deppression affects everyone differently, so do antideppressents. One of my friends doesn't take antideppressents because it doesn't work for him. Yet it worked for me. But there are many different kinds of antideppressents and different doses a doctor can put you on. The doctor will probably ask you a few questions to determine what antideppressent to give you aswell as the dose. They will most likely start you off with a smaller dose, but if it doesn't work they will give you a higher dose. Depending on the antideppressent, it will take a bit to feel the effects. And it won't be instant either. It will gradually change over the course of however long it takes. For me it was about 2 weeks (according to my doctor). If you have a good doctor, then they will be there for you and will make sure that you can get what you need.

Hi , Freen

hi, i am new here

what happen?

Feel lonely lately

Hi there @catgal05, I just wanted to check in with you and see if you're OK. We're here for you if you would like to talk about it some more. You can also send us a message on confidential support if you would prefer that.

Yummy

, that dinner looks good

Ah they’re banging!!! ! Agreed

Ooh yum , no sausages for us, ah nice Stuffing is delicious My fav is a Yorkie pud

Oh nice. Having chicken? I am! My fav is stuffing

Ah cool, it can be boring sometimes oh I'm having a roast dinner too

Ah nice. Went shopping with the fam but was boring. I’m just very tired for reasons. But sort of glad to have a roast dinner today. So excited for it

Yeah , just been keeping myself busy with music and helping with tidying the house.

I’m glad you’re okay

Ah, yeah I'm okay thanks

I’m okay, ( ish ), you?