Blc Posted February 16 Author Share Posted February 16 Still ignoring me, at this point and for my sanity, I think I should just stop caring what happens anymore, because at this point if she doesn't see it what's the point of staying? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 10 minutes ago, Blc said: Still ignoring me, at this point and for my sanity, I think I should just stop caring what happens anymore, because at this point if she doesn't see it what's the point of staying? I mean ur not wrong you have to take ur feelings into play and ik that you’ve been feeling like shit since the fight happened between u guys but imma support u no matter wht and ill be here for u no matter wht ur choice is. i love u compa and i just needed u to know tht Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blc Posted February 16 Author Share Posted February 16 Thank you, I mean I probably don't deserve the love but thanks for saying that Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 6 minutes ago, Blc said: Thank you, I mean I probably don't deserve the love but thanks for saying that you do deserve the love and i wanna help u understand that no matter wht happens in the future or wht has happened in ur past u deserve tht love 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blc Posted February 16 Author Share Posted February 16 It sucks you know? I really do love her, even if she doesn't anymore, I actually do and I don't think I'll ever actually love someone like that again, ik I'll meet someone eventually, or I already have its hard to tell, I really wish I could turn back time and stop myself from ending it, because I genuinely had fun evern if every time she got put in the hospital or when we didn't really talk last August I didn't care, I was genuinely in love with her it sucks like really Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 3 minutes ago, Blc said: It sucks you know? I really do love her, even if she doesn't anymore, I actually do and I don't think I'll ever actually love someone like that again, ik I'll meet someone eventually, or I already have its hard to tell, I really wish I could turn back time and stop myself from ending it, because I genuinely had fun evern if every time she got put in the hospital or when we didn't really talk last August I didn't care, I was genuinely in love with her it sucks like really i’ve felt the same love ur describing and yes it’s hard, it’s 1000000% hard and it gets harder and harder but it gets easier i promise i was in love with someone the same way you are 4 yrs ago and today happens to be the anniversary and he went to the hospital a lot too but one day he never came out the hospital and while it’s been 4 yrs i’ve never been the same or been able to love the same but i had to realize he would want me to do better for myself and my future if he was still here. so yes she might not love you anymore and you might not love someone the same but you can might someone that loves you the same and that treats you the same. finding someone and being in love is not the main purpose of life but it’s one of the amazing bout life there so many ppl you could love you but we also get stuck on that one person Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blc Posted February 16 Author Share Posted February 16 I hope so and sorry for your loss at least you seem to be doing ok Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 5 minutes ago, Blc said: I hope so and sorry for your loss at least you seem to be doing ok looks can be deceiving. when he passed i blamed it on myself a lot but i came to understand no matter how much i tried to help he wouldn’t get better cuz of wht he was going tho and i wouldn’t be the person i am today. while he was and is the love of my life i miss him everyday but his passing got me tho a lot of things even though he’s not here he’s my drive to everything i do, he’s my drive for the career I want and his passing made me change how i see the world and people and wht ppl go though behind close doors Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blc Posted February 16 Author Share Posted February 16 Good train of thought, he may be gone but at least you will keep the memories you did make really close to your heart, I wish I had your optmism and willingness to live, because I really don't have any Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 7 minutes ago, Blc said: Good train of thought, he may be gone but at least you will keep the memories you did make really close to your heart, I wish I had your optmism and willingness to live, because I really don't have any honestly, it’s hard living without him. why don’t you have any? some days ion even get up to go to school or work anymore Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blc Posted February 16 Author Share Posted February 16 Idk tbh, I think I'm slowly losing myself, everyday I just seem to be getting worse and worse and I hate myself may be the problem lies in that I don't get out as much as I should because I have really awful PTSD from being bullied and it's to the point where relationships are really difficult things for me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 im so sorry that ur slowing losing yourself and no one can understand the trauma and pain your going though other than people who have been though the same thing, the fact that you have PTSD from being bullied is understandable and so do i’ve been bullied since kindergarten cuz of my weight. im sorry tht relationships are hard for you and ik none of this can be easy for you. i really hope can/am helping you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blc Posted February 16 Author Share Posted February 16 A little, it's nice to have someone who understands Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 ya, ppl in my life dnt really understand anything ive been tho or goin tho Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blc Posted February 16 Author Share Posted February 16 I'm here for you just know that, if you need to talk I'm here it might help get my mind off of stuff Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 ya, ppl in my life dnt really understand anything ive been tho or goin tho Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blc Posted February 16 Author Share Posted February 16 I'm here if you want to talk Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 same to u Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blc Posted February 16 Author Share Posted February 16 I could really use some one to talk to rn Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 im here for u. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 sorry i didnt answer right away i didnt see tht u messaged back Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blc Posted February 17 Author Share Posted February 17 It's alright I'm doing a bit better I guess Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 17 Share Posted February 17 im glad ur doing a bit better im here if u need to talk Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blc Posted February 17 Author Share Posted February 17 Thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
La_Bonita_Chica Posted February 17 Share Posted February 17 of course 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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