I'm so sorry for your situation.
But luckily, you've found out that you have depression which is quite hard to accept for someone.
Knowing that you have depression is the first step to treat it. It would be fine if you reach out to someone about your problem. If you have a best friend, tell them. or you mom, your family.... anyone that makes you feel safe and comfortable to be with. You should visit a psychologist also (in case you need to treat by drugs...).
I'm so sorry for my English but I hope you can understand what I'm trying to say.
I'm looking forward for your update.
Get well soon, stay safe!