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  2. Alex.

    I came out to my sis.

    Ok. After a year, I came out to my sis. Not my parents, my sister. She is an ally after I taught her about LGTBQ+, her friend is gay and I remember last week she came home smiling, saying, “ My friend is gay! I’m so proud of her for coming out!” That made my heart melt. I waited a while before breaking the truth, after I liked my first girl, figured out myself a bit, and then we were watching queer eye together when my parents were asleep. She decided to switch the channel, and I watched it on my phone. She found out the show first, and she smiles when she just sees love as love. She is 3 years younger than me, but still. Because of me, she knows more about the LGTBQ+ community than my parents do. Anyways, I was almost in tears when a lesbian woman was kicked out of her home, twice because of who she was. And I was like, that is it. It pulled on my heartstrings too much. So just ten mins ago, I closed the door, and told her what happened to that girl and she almost cried. Then I said, “ it kinda hurts me because-“ “ what?” She looked at me, with wandering eyes. I chocked on my own voice, saying, “ please don’t tell a soul.” We pinky promised, and I said the words that gave me stomach aches and panic attacks, and let them out in a single breath. “ I’m demi and bi. ( heteroflexible.)” she laughed a bit. “ I already knew you were demi. You told me in March.” Oh yeah. Oops. I didn’t say I was aceflux, because I didn’t want it to be too confusing for her. “ do you still love me?” My lip quivered a bit, and I wanted to cry. “ of course! I support everyone, no matter who they love!” I sighed of relief. “ promise not to tell mom or dad?” “ sisters keep secrets.” She said, and I walked out of her room, replying, “ thank you.” Then I texted my bi friend, and she sent me a bunch of smiling emojis. I just hope my sister doesn’t betray me. She can’t betray me. My parents can’t know. They just can’t. I had a great day today. I’m a girl, not genderqueer. I learned that you don’t have to be 100% female to be one. I still give nothing about gender though, we are just humans, and humans don’t need a gender to describe themselves. I went early birthday shopping with my mom and got this vintage inspired tee that looks like its for girls, boys, and everyone in between! I feel a bit more relieved, at least I have an ally to support me in my house. . I’ll come out to my parents later in my life, if my identities change or still are the same. I feel like crying of fear and happiness now, but at least there is a hole, not just a crack in the closet door.
  3. Wow... I understand how you feel, even though I haven't find a solution to all those thoughts but I can say that those things are not true at all, I'm sure that you are a wonderful person that hasn't been able to meet the right people, just work on yourself an don't worry about everything else, those things come at you sooner or later. And I know that the laboral life is scary, but just keep in mind that life is about learning, and don't worry if you fail, you can try again, because we learn more about our mistakes than our success. I hope these words have served you, and I'm not very good at making friends too, but if you want, you can message me anytime, and I'll be really happy to answer.
  4. Yesterday
  5. I'm hardcore fan of this game, I like many other games, but I'm always coming back to this one. you can share tips, tricks and funny or interesting moments from Gensin Impact here, plus, maybe you find your playmate here. My discord:WolfyCZE#8800 if you'd like to chat while playing and I'm gonna share my game id here after I'll get to my PS4. I'm playing many survival zombie apocalypse mobile games too, so if you're playing these too and if you share it's name here, you might find someone who plays it too and you can play it together
  6. I do have passive thoughts about dying but it's not an active thing where I'm planning it or anything. I haven't done anything to harm myself. I think my feelings are due to a bunch of things. I feel like I might be neurodivergent the way I always feel like an outsider and can't make friends the way other people do.. It feels like everyone received an instruction manual on life and I just didn't. I don't think I've had a genuine friend until I turned 18, and even then I keep feeling like my friendships aren't reciprocal and that they would rather be with other people than with me. So, when I see other people with friends constantly cheering them on and going out of their way to support them, I feel jealous that I can't make anyone commit to me like that. My environment feels really small and suffocating. I never got guidance on relationships from my parents so I look to the internet and popular opinion for advice but I'm getting so many conflicting messages that I don't know what to do. I've also been beating myself up because I haven't accomplished what I hoped I would. It feels like I shouldn't even try to pursue anything because I do 5% of what I told myself I would.
  7. Hi, you can call me Wolfy, I'm 20 (plus few days) old girl that realized my true sexuality just recently, there was some clues from my childhood to now that I might not be straight, but I never thought that I'm bi, I just thought I'm weird, I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was five and diagnosed with autism when I was eleven, so I thought that it's something with my diagnoses than my sexuality. I just think I'm bisexual, but I'm not sure. I'm bisexual by the definition of bisexuality, but I don't feel like that definition sits with me. I'm more attracted to males than females, I'm more sexually attracted to males and more romantically attracted mo females. This goes for 2 or so years now. So am I bisexual or is this just a phase? PS:Thank you for reading this
  8. I'm wondering, do you know when you might have more freedom again? Have you spoken with them about things like that?
  9. Hey, If you ever feel like you're unsafe, just incase you need it, here is some safety information: UK - The Samaritans: 116 123 (24/7 service) USA - NSPL: 1-800-273-8255 A list of worldwide crisis lines: https://www.befrienders.org An app I can recommend: https://www.prevent-suicide.org.uk/find-help-now/stay-alive-app/ this has safety plans to make sure you don't harm yourself and you might find it useful. Also, I'm sorry to hear that your parents have been abusive towards you. Would you like to share more about what has happened? I can appreciate that this may be hard to talk about, but I really do think that a problem shared is a problem halved, and this is a safe, non-judgemental space where you can talk about anything on your mind.
  10. Hey, Sure. If you scroll to the top of the page, click the confidential support tab and send us a message there. Speak soon.
  11. VIVIEN_

    I hate my family

    That's pretty annoying. My mom's the same way.
  12. Ellie S

    I hate my family

    They want to have control over what I can download, so that I can't have social media or games. And my sister just doesn't really feel the need to use a phone.
  13. She said she was only trying to be queer to try snd get support from the lgbtq+ community and idk if I should ask my other girl friends this idea and see how they would respond if I came out
  14. Thanks, good luck with school!
  15. I am definitely fine with taking my time, but I want to explore these feelings to understand them more. But I don't know how or where to start.
  16. Ophfff that is horrible if he asks for forgiveness he needs to show that he has actually changed I am soooo sorry that happened to you and I hope you find and meet some real good true friends that have your back soon
  17. Maybe although I will probably still have to move if I want to become a marine biologist living in the middle of a containant really isn’t the best place for that
  18. I am heaving really bad thoughts. All I want to do is make my parents happy, but i also want to be myself. I know in my heart I cannot do both. I am in a really bad situation because many people are ratting my sexuality out to my parents and all I do is deny it. They think I don't love them because I am not changing for them and they are manipulating me to change.
  19. Well, I guess I'm safe? I'm not feeling great because my parents are verbally abusing me and then it really affects me and I think about what they said all day and it distracts me from getting things done. They say really harsh things that no child should have to hear.
  20. Oh good luck with University that’s okay you’ll get used to it in the end!! im sure you can you just have to believe in yourself a little. Nice to meet too btw it’s soo true I literally picked my options for GCSE and they have to lower it down to 3 subjects to fit some extra English but that’s me I guess!!!
  21. Hi, my name is Vivi. Im from Alabama, my pronouns are she/her. Welcome to the community.
  22. VIVIEN_

    I hate my family

    I'm really sorry to hear that. That must be awful. Have you asked them for a new phone or an Apple ID? And why won't your sister really use it?
  23. Hi, I've been working on an old story, I've got less then a page done. Instead of working on it everyday, like I did with some stories I now hate, I'm working on it when ever I get a new idea. I've also been working on a story I have delayed since January the 28th. Both stories have are very typical. Nothing really cool and different, but it's just for practice. I'm waiting until I'm really good a writing to write a book I've been working on for awhile. I'm really excited about it and can't wait until I'm good a writing. Life has been pretty normal. I've started learning French along with Japanese. I'm getting pretty good at them. I'm also working on my art, though I'm not an artist it would be cool if I could draw my own characters. I've been re-reading my favorite books, its OK but I'd rather read something new. Almost everyone in my family is sick. I hope I don't get sick cause I just recovered from being sick. They didn't get sick because of me, because their sickness is different. I've been having the most vivid and random dreams lately. I mean I've always had really weird dreams but these are probably my favorite. It's usually me fighting evil and going on adventures. Which I love, well except the fighting part. I can't tell if my mental health is getting better. I've just been ignoring it, but when someone mentions it it all comes flooding back. Though I push it down again and say "I'm fine." It's too painful to face it so I ignore it, which makes it worse so I push it down. It's probably not the best thing to do but lately I haven't had any energy, so I can't really face it. But other then that I guess I'm fine. I haven't been sad or happy just kinda numb. I haven't had breakfast yet and it's noon so bye.
  24. I read the lyrics of the song that you wrote, keep up the good work, never abandon such great hobbies!
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