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What it means to be a survivor.


Alex.

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I was born three months early, with a raspy breath and decreasing heart rate. I was told I wouldn’t make it, and was pronounced dead that same day. Then, they discovered I was still alive, and worked hard to keep me living.  One thing I learned from that experience was that I had the guts to have a working heart and lungs, but as I grew, people made me want to shut it down. Remarks were like a trail of smoke, the aftermath of a fire. I have a writing disability, ADHD, speech issues, was in physical therapy for 6 years, and have severe anxiety. People call me ugly, a mistake, I was used by many people-they never knew what it is like to step in my shoes. To die but come back alive, to be alive and come back dead. Despite peoples remarks, I continued to work hard, and overcame my writing disability by becoming a poet and novelist, yet nobody respects me, I’m treated like dirt and they mash me into mud pies. These are just the small details, but really, I’m just a girl, a girl who doesn’t trust people easily and is a survivor in many ways you don’t know about. If only people could visualize, dig deeper than just skin, you’ll find either a stone cold heart or a warm one. People break people, but they can also fix the broken pieces. That’s what I want people that weren’t the people I met, people who could uplift others and say that being a survivor is ok, it just means that you have to work twice as hard.  I met a teacher who reminded me that I was more than just scars, she is the reason I’m still alive mentally. We all need people like her, kindness is universal and beautiful. 

If you are like me, you must remember, survivor’s are awesome and beautiful in ways people don’t see, but at least you do. You know what pain feels like, and nobody deserves that pain. We get light from darkness, this long road you are on is going to be worth it. Trust me, I was you, and walked through that pathway myself. You’re special, you deserve the love you give to everyone else, and that the people who struggle the most, are the ones who end up changing the world with those struggles.

love, Alexis.

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  • Digital Mentor

Hey,

Thank you for sharing your story here; it was really moving and emotional to ready. I'm wondering, for anyone that might be struggling with anything similar, what advice would you give them? 

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Hi monsoon! I don’t know how to reply because I am new.  Anyways, some advice I would to give to people is that they matter. Sometimes I don’t think I do, but we must know that everyone of us has a big purpose in life. Also, if you don’t think you are where you need to be, just wait. The greatest things don’t happen automatically-they take time. 

5 hours ago, Monsoon said:

Hey,

Thank you for sharing your story here; it was really moving and emotional to ready. I'm wondering, for anyone that might be struggling with anything similar, what advice would you give them? 

 

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I believe this got reported if it did I am sorry for what ever reason why..a red mark keeps showing on this blog

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  • Digital Mentor

Hey,

Really great advice, especially around remembering that you do matter :)

Also, can you still see a red mark? We can't! 

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