hey everyone! I'm so glad a lot of you liked the small bit I showed you guys of the story, and guess what, i have a name for the story! it is called The Girl Who Can See Me. here it is!!!!
She pushes me against the wall, and until now I really understand the urgent need coursing through her because my back recoils from the thrashing pain, but I don’t move from under her, god knows what she’ll do next. Or worse, what I’ll do if she moves any closer. “What-” I pause when her finger lightly traces my hand -that is currently against the wall- to my shoulder, comprehending every comprehension there is to take in and feel, and suddenly I’m not so cold anymore. Heat flares on my body, hair standing on ends from the nerves as I try to pull in what little and as much oxygen I can pull into my body. “What-” I pause and try again. I can’t keep my defenses short, no matter how breathless I sound and feel. “ What are you doing? I can’t-” I pause again because there she is, 1-2 inches within my mouth distance, so close I’m practically caressing her lips. So close that if I move any closer, I would be kissing her. So close that if I breathe too deeply my chest, legs, arms, all body parts pressed to hers, even as I struggle to straighten my body. I slowly bring my hands to her shoulders, planning to push her away, but I hesitate. And the question is, why? I tightened my grip and, impulsively, shoved her body to mine because fuck the rules, I want to feel her cherry limeade scented lips pushed against mine as if I’m the only thing that she can crave. The only girl who can see me. The only thing that makes food pale in comparison, the second I also realize that my hunger has skyrocketed, but I only realize that for a second before she hits us to the floor, because of course a girl like her has a hunger like mine.
I woke up with a startled panic. I sighed. Just a dream. Although, like all my incredibly romance-induced dreams, they seem so real. Not as in realistic real, but real enough for me to believe it. The universe just likes to fuck me up like that though, right? Can’t attack me physically, verbally, or mentally while I’m up and awake, so of course, when I’m most vulnerable, it attacks the fact that I’m single for life and creates this perfect girl for me in my mind, makes me spend the dreamy day with her, kiss her even, then stop it like hold up, you’re having too much happiness and fun, then abruptly cuts me off from the dream and back to reality, where I’m at right now. I suck in a good amount of oxygen and collect myself from that wondrous nightmare. The last thing I need is an imaginary love life. I put on the clothes I left in my drawer last night, grabbed my backpack and keys, and hightailed it to the car. It is such a relief that I don’t have to rely on the bus anymore; this permit is saving me a lot of time to when that shit was stressing me since the fifth grade, the whole mantra of waking up at 4:00 am to get ready and my hair. Ugh. Well, at least if I would’ve gotten to the bus today I wouldn’t be late for school. Not to make it worse, I live 20 minutes away from the freaking school. I went a little over the speed limit, but I don’t regret it because I’m just over the hill where the school is. I take a minute to realize that there are surprisingly empty spaces in the parking lot. Not many are here today, I guess. Not that I’d worry much; it’s a Monday. I park near the entrance and rapidly run behind the other student that opened the door, and I get in before it closes. I saw my newest best friend, Sady light up the second she saw me and gave me a big hug like a little kid when they see their mother after a long day in kindergarten. “Ellace! I missed you!” and basically crushed my ribs. It’s no wonder why her cousins call her little Malice; she’s a sneaky one. I pat her on the back and said “hey Malice, what’s up?” she flashed a grin at me and morphed her face into a mischievous smirk. “ My cousins are coming today. I cannot wait for you to meet Archie, and I can’t wait to get you two together” she smugly mentioned. I sighed and lightly rolled my eyes. Ever since Romaine and I broke up, Sads has been trying to put me back out there again, if that girl, boy, enby, or other looks interesting or something to make me forget about him, but nothing has worked for the past year, especially since his parents decided that this school was better than his old one so they moved and now I get to see him with his happy self and girlfriend, Errotica. Errotica and I are close, yea, but we’ve been kind of distant since she started dating him. And Sads has been giving Errotica her back since she was raised in the outdated girl code and how feminism shouldn’t be taken lightly, so that is placed, and while I appreciate her loyalty, I think we both know that her cousin isn’t a bad person, and should just leave it at that. “ Sads, you know that you’re cousin will most likely not convince me. Besides,
Edited by Daisie