This is my journey with anxiety, ADHD, and trying to figure things out.

Hey there,

Oh, how exciting that Ms A has a boyfriend! Also, weddings are really something to look forward to, aren't they? Have you been to one before? Also, just a quick question, I'm wondering, is Ms A one of our teachers?

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I love weddings, i've been to one and a half weddings, that sounds confusing but I only went to the reception of one of them. (I was around 6) and the other one was about two years later but still it was four years ago. Yes she is one of my teachers kind of, her daughter does scouts with me and that's how I met that family, I met them at summer camp and she co-runs the summer camp with another mom.  She doesn't do leading in scouts but she does a lot in camp, so she is a teacher of sorts, she is one of my archery coaches, Ms. A and Ms. H are my coaches for archery and are the ones who got me really into archery at summer camp. I learned to shoot a bow when I was 6 and Ms. H taught me, a couple years later I moved troops for about four years and came back this summer. I remembered Ms. H but pretty much met Ms. A and her kid for the first time even though the kid remembers me from when I was in the troop the first time.

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Thank you for clarifying how you know Ms A and Ms H. The idea of summer camp sounds so much fun; will you be going again next year? Also, how is everything going for you at the moment? How's school?

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As I said on a comment on the Ms. A blog post it's not a typical summer camp. I don't have much of a choice to go or not, my mom is the camp nurse. I'm ok with that I love going to camp every year. One of the things that makes it different than a typical camp is its only one week and it's all volunteer based. Ms. A's job isn't for a summer camp, she is a professor (I think) Things are going fairly well, I have archery tommorow and am going to try to tell Ms. A about my name change and see how she reacts. Prepare for the worst, hope for the best. I'm almost certain she will be supportive but you never know. 

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sorry, my bad. Although you don't have much of a choice as to whether you go or not, it's great that you love going and it sounds like you have an amazing time there! What other kinds of things happen at the camp? It sounds like a great place to be :) 

I will most likely make a blog post about it, not sure. I didn't get to talk to Ms. A today, she wasn't there. The weather was terrible. I did get to talk to Ms. H though. We talked about my name things, she is going to help me tell people about it, on my own time. My dad was upset that I wanted to talk to Ms. H, I was a little emotional and looked like I had been crying, because I had. My dad sat in the car while I talked to her. On the way home he asked if I was ok and I said multiple times that I was fine, at that point I was there was just a lot going on in my mind. The reason that I think he was mad was he kept asking and I snapped a little bit saying, that he has a teenage daughter, and that he should just let it be and ignore it unless I specifically said otherwise. He eventually said "So I just ignore it and let other people parent you?" I was so mad about that. Other people don't parent me, I just want my parents to let me fly a little bit. I am flying on my own more but I still need someone to help me along a bit, someone who is not my parents. That person is Ms. H. She understands more than my parents ever could. I don't know how to tell that to my parents and make them realise that i'm right, my parents will never understand what I think and feel. I am going to try to have a back up plan just in case things go extremely wrong, that plan with most likely involve Ms. H. Prepare for the worst, hope for the best. I am afraid something will go wrong, but in the end, Ms. H will be by my side if anything goes wrong. I'm going to make two blog posts tonight, one about Ms. A's daughter and one about current life events for me. 

Hey there,

I'm glad that Ms H will help you tell people about what's going on. I saw what you said about making two blog posts, one about your current life events, so I will look out for that. I'm not sure if you mean writing about what Ms H is going to help you with, but I just want you to know that I am here to talk about whatever is going on for you if you like. 

It's interesting that your dad reacted so emotionally about you talking to Ms H. Why do you think he was tense about it? Also, can you tell me a little bit more about why you feel your parents will never understand what you think and feel? 

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I do have some blog posts in the works I am going to be busy ish this week because of the holidays but I will get them out soon. I ultimately just think he is having trouble with the fact that he has to start letting me go and get advice from other people and hang out with my friends more. I don't know what's wrong with him but I want to do something to make him realise that he is overreacting and that he needs to let me spread my wings and learn more. I don't think he realises that before Ms. H  I didn't ask anyone for help, but now I can and I can tell people what's going on. I wish he realised that it was for my own good. They won't understand because I am to different, I have people that understand and my parents aren't on that list.

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Yeah, I think that's a really good observation. It's really difficult for parents when their children start becoming more independent; I think it leaves them feeling like they aren't useful or helpful anymore - do you know what I mean? I wonder, what do you think you could do to help him realise that he needs to let you spread your wings? 

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I really don't know, I talked to my mom about it today and she said to make sure i'm making time for him, and thanking him for taking me to stuff like archery or friends houses.

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Ah, that’s good that you spoke to your mom. What do you think about the things she suggested? 

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Everything she said, I've done, tried and it really doesn't work. All but the last one I mentioned, I haven't had much of a chance to but I will soon because i'm going to Ms. A's house soon to hang out with Emmy.

Hey there,

Ah, okay. I'm wondering, what do you think will work to help the situation?