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My Random Thoughts: Will I ever be a bridesmaid?


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Hello Lovelies!

Ok this will probably get pretty confusing very fast so bear with me, I will elaborate at the end. 

So Ms. A, amazing lady, my second mother (And she knows it) and all around just cool person. I'm not going into details but she has a boyfriend that I have recently discovered the existence of, I haven't met him yet but he sounds pretty cool. I'm not utterly sure if Ms. A knows that I know about him but her daughter is my best friend so I bet she wouldn't be surprised if/when she found out that it came up in conversation once or twice. This is none of my business and I well aware of that, this is the blog category titled My Random Thoughts! soooo i'm going to talk about my random thoughts and wow there are a lot of them but only a handful that I will go into semi-detail about. Not the point, so she has a boyfriend, I don't know many details and I don't want to know very much about this it's none of my business and I respect that, i'm not going into details about her end of this just mine. 

To the actual point of this, marriage. So my brain goes absolutely wild when i'm not on my ADHD medication (I mean when i'm on it to but that's not the point) this morning I was thinking about what would happen if Ms. A and her boyfriend (Who if I need a name for him i'll call David) if they were engaged and planning a wedding. I get the fact that wedding planning is stressful and can make people a bit nuts. The thing is I am the person who starts shaking if I find out someone is either getting married or having a baby, even if I have just met those people. I started shaking a little bit at the thought of it because the thought crossed my mind that Ms. A might ask me to be a bridesmaid. I have jokingly said to Ms. A's daughter(Calling her Emmy) that I better be invited to that wedding, which Emmy thought was funny just because of how I said it and the context it was in. This morning I was thinking about what it would be like to be a bridesmaid, I then looked up how old you have to be to be a bridesmaid, it recommended for a 12 year old to be something called a junior bridesmaid and it honestly doesn't sound as fun. I know its for kids not to have as much responsibility in planning and helping, but I honestly think I can handle some of that, even at a young age. They are not engaged and if they do get married at some point I assume it will be a little later in life, I will probably be somewhere between 13 and 15 years old, which I would be even more ready at that point. (All though it would be most convenient after I get my drivers licence so I can drive myself to and from things. Not about me though.) 

I have thought about this way to much today but I just think it would be so cool, I took a nap today and had a dream about her asking me to be a bridesmaid. It made me kind of happy and I hope that someday if she gets married again that I can be a bridesmaid. The odds are in my favor as she loves me and i'm very close with her and one of her daughters. I wouldn't be offended if she didn't ask me to be a bridesmaid either, I would just be happy for her. 

The bottom line is it would be so cool to be one of Ms. A's bridesmaids in the future if she ever remarries, and even if that doesn't happen i'm happy with her in my life. Also my brain does what it wants and it had a field day today.

EDIT: I just remembered a funny moment from after Emmy told me and a couple of our close friends about David, one of our friends (Calling her Riley) had been saying who would you rather stab (Or something like that. We all have a sense of humor that likes this stuff) and then she would say a couple of people. The conversation went a bit like this... 

"Emmy who would you rather kill, your mom, your dad, your stepmom, or your stepdad?" Riley said

"I don't have a stepdad." Emmy said, while laughing. Everyone laughed.

 "Yet!" I said, and everyone laughed a lot, all but Emmy who still laughed a bit but then had an embarrassing look on her face. 

I love making my friends laugh and one of them slightly uncomfortable, and we are still good friends after that. And after I keep whispering lover birds in her ear she gags every time. But that's a story for a different day.

Edited by Daisie

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  • Digital Mentor

Hey there,

Oh, how exciting that Ms A has a boyfriend! Also, weddings are really something to look forward to, aren't they? Have you been to one before? Also, just a quick question, I'm wondering, is Ms A one of our teachers?

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Hey,

I love weddings, i've been to one and a half weddings, that sounds confusing but I only went to the reception of one of them. (I was around 6) and the other one was about two years later but still it was four years ago. Yes she is one of my teachers kind of, her daughter does scouts with me and that's how I met that family, I met them at summer camp and she co-runs the summer camp with another mom.  She doesn't do leading in scouts but she does a lot in camp, so she is a teacher of sorts, she is one of my archery coaches, Ms. A and Ms. H are my coaches for archery and are the ones who got me really into archery at summer camp. I learned to shoot a bow when I was 6 and Ms. H taught me, a couple years later I moved troops for about four years and came back this summer. I remembered Ms. H but pretty much met Ms. A and her kid for the first time even though the kid remembers me from when I was in the troop the first time.

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  • Digital Mentor

Hey there,

Thank you for clarifying how you know Ms A and Ms H. The idea of summer camp sounds so much fun; will you be going again next year? Also, how is everything going for you at the moment? How's school?

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Hey, 

As I said on a comment on the Ms. A blog post it's not a typical summer camp. I don't have much of a choice to go or not, my mom is the camp nurse. I'm ok with that I love going to camp every year. One of the things that makes it different than a typical camp is its only one week and it's all volunteer based. Ms. A's job isn't for a summer camp, she is a professor (I think) Things are going fairly well, I have archery tommorow and am going to try to tell Ms. A about my name change and see how she reacts. Prepare for the worst, hope for the best. I'm almost certain she will be supportive but you never know. 

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  • Digital Mentor

Hey,

sorry, my bad. Although you don't have much of a choice as to whether you go or not, it's great that you love going and it sounds like you have an amazing time there! What other kinds of things happen at the camp? It sounds like a great place to be :) 

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I will most likely make a blog post about it, not sure. I didn't get to talk to Ms. A today, she wasn't there. The weather was terrible. I did get to talk to Ms. H though. We talked about my name things, she is going to help me tell people about it, on my own time. My dad was upset that I wanted to talk to Ms. H, I was a little emotional and looked like I had been crying, because I had. My dad sat in the car while I talked to her. On the way home he asked if I was ok and I said multiple times that I was fine, at that point I was there was just a lot going on in my mind. The reason that I think he was mad was he kept asking and I snapped a little bit saying, that he has a teenage daughter, and that he should just let it be and ignore it unless I specifically said otherwise. He eventually said "So I just ignore it and let other people parent you?" I was so mad about that. Other people don't parent me, I just want my parents to let me fly a little bit. I am flying on my own more but I still need someone to help me along a bit, someone who is not my parents. That person is Ms. H. She understands more than my parents ever could. I don't know how to tell that to my parents and make them realise that i'm right, my parents will never understand what I think and feel. I am going to try to have a back up plan just in case things go extremely wrong, that plan with most likely involve Ms. H. Prepare for the worst, hope for the best. I am afraid something will go wrong, but in the end, Ms. H will be by my side if anything goes wrong. I'm going to make two blog posts tonight, one about Ms. A's daughter and one about current life events for me. 

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  • Digital Mentor

Hey there,

I'm glad that Ms H will help you tell people about what's going on. I saw what you said about making two blog posts, one about your current life events, so I will look out for that. I'm not sure if you mean writing about what Ms H is going to help you with, but I just want you to know that I am here to talk about whatever is going on for you if you like. 

It's interesting that your dad reacted so emotionally about you talking to Ms H. Why do you think he was tense about it? Also, can you tell me a little bit more about why you feel your parents will never understand what you think and feel? 

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Hey,

I do have some blog posts in the works I am going to be busy ish this week because of the holidays but I will get them out soon. I ultimately just think he is having trouble with the fact that he has to start letting me go and get advice from other people and hang out with my friends more. I don't know what's wrong with him but I want to do something to make him realise that he is overreacting and that he needs to let me spread my wings and learn more. I don't think he realises that before Ms. H  I didn't ask anyone for help, but now I can and I can tell people what's going on. I wish he realised that it was for my own good. They won't understand because I am to different, I have people that understand and my parents aren't on that list.

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  • Digital Mentor

Hey,

Yeah, I think that's a really good observation. It's really difficult for parents when their children start becoming more independent; I think it leaves them feeling like they aren't useful or helpful anymore - do you know what I mean? I wonder, what do you think you could do to help him realise that he needs to let you spread your wings? 

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Hey,

I really don't know, I talked to my mom about it today and she said to make sure i'm making time for him, and thanking him for taking me to stuff like archery or friends houses.

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  • Digital Mentor

Hey,

Ah, that’s good that you spoke to your mom. What do you think about the things she suggested? 

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Hey,

Everything she said, I've done, tried and it really doesn't work. All but the last one I mentioned, I haven't had much of a chance to but I will soon because i'm going to Ms. A's house soon to hang out with Emmy.

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