My Random Thoughts: Will I ever be a bridesmaid?
Hello Lovelies!
Ok this will probably get pretty confusing very fast so bear with me, I will elaborate at the end.
So Ms. A, amazing lady, my second mother (And she knows it) and all around just cool person. I'm not going into details but she has a boyfriend that I have recently discovered the existence of, I haven't met him yet but he sounds pretty cool. I'm not utterly sure if Ms. A knows that I know about him but her daughter is my best friend so I bet she wouldn't be surprised if/when she found out that it came up in conversation once or twice. This is none of my business and I well aware of that, this is the blog category titled My Random Thoughts! soooo i'm going to talk about my random thoughts and wow there are a lot of them but only a handful that I will go into semi-detail about. Not the point, so she has a boyfriend, I don't know many details and I don't want to know very much about this it's none of my business and I respect that, i'm not going into details about her end of this just mine.
To the actual point of this, marriage. So my brain goes absolutely wild when i'm not on my ADHD medication (I mean when i'm on it to but that's not the point) this morning I was thinking about what would happen if Ms. A and her boyfriend (Who if I need a name for him i'll call David) if they were engaged and planning a wedding. I get the fact that wedding planning is stressful and can make people a bit nuts. The thing is I am the person who starts shaking if I find out someone is either getting married or having a baby, even if I have just met those people. I started shaking a little bit at the thought of it because the thought crossed my mind that Ms. A might ask me to be a bridesmaid. I have jokingly said to Ms. A's daughter(Calling her Emmy) that I better be invited to that wedding, which Emmy thought was funny just because of how I said it and the context it was in. This morning I was thinking about what it would be like to be a bridesmaid, I then looked up how old you have to be to be a bridesmaid, it recommended for a 12 year old to be something called a junior bridesmaid and it honestly doesn't sound as fun. I know its for kids not to have as much responsibility in planning and helping, but I honestly think I can handle some of that, even at a young age. They are not engaged and if they do get married at some point I assume it will be a little later in life, I will probably be somewhere between 13 and 15 years old, which I would be even more ready at that point. (All though it would be most convenient after I get my drivers licence so I can drive myself to and from things. Not about me though.)
I have thought about this way to much today but I just think it would be so cool, I took a nap today and had a dream about her asking me to be a bridesmaid. It made me kind of happy and I hope that someday if she gets married again that I can be a bridesmaid. The odds are in my favor as she loves me and i'm very close with her and one of her daughters. I wouldn't be offended if she didn't ask me to be a bridesmaid either, I would just be happy for her.
The bottom line is it would be so cool to be one of Ms. A's bridesmaids in the future if she ever remarries, and even if that doesn't happen i'm happy with her in my life. Also my brain does what it wants and it had a field day today.
EDIT: I just remembered a funny moment from after Emmy told me and a couple of our close friends about David, one of our friends (Calling her Riley) had been saying who would you rather stab (Or something like that. We all have a sense of humor that likes this stuff) and then she would say a couple of people. The conversation went a bit like this...
"Emmy who would you rather kill, your mom, your dad, your stepmom, or your stepdad?" Riley said
"I don't have a stepdad." Emmy said, while laughing. Everyone laughed.
"Yet!" I said, and everyone laughed a lot, all but Emmy who still laughed a bit but then had an embarrassing look on her face.
I love making my friends laugh and one of them slightly uncomfortable, and we are still good friends after that. And after I keep whispering lover birds in her ear she gags every time. But that's a story for a different day.
Edited by Daisie
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