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I hate writing on paper so I'm writing here.

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This is my goodbye

Hello! I have received lots of help from many people here and I want to say thank you. Though I am sad to leave I feel like it is best if I focus on my life. Thank you again for all your help and advice. Goodbye!

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VIVIEN_ in September

Hey, I feel like I'm getting better.

I've had depression since the beginning of 2021. And near the end of that year I became a suicidal. I stopped doing the things I should have been doing. I got behind in all my subjects, I'm even having to retake one this fall. I've been through a lot. There were times I just wanted to give up. But I didn't. And I'm so glad I didn't. Because this passed month has been one of the best month since 2021. To be honest I never thought I could be as happy as I was before I had depression but I was wron

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VIVIEN_ in July

Summer break is almost over

With summer break almost over, I have been busy figuring out which classes I should take. Cause I'm going to a homeschool co-op? Is that what you call it. Anyway, I'll be going only on Tuesdays from 9am to 3pm. It starts on the 16th of August. I was planning on only taking 3 classes but my mom wants me to do music so I'm now going to take 4 classes. I've been to a co-op like this one in my 8th grade year but I only took 2 classes. So I'm really nervous. Good news, I'll be going with my sisters s

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VIVIEN_ in July

A little update on my life.

Hi, I've been working on an old story, I've got less then a page done. Instead of working on it everyday, like I did with some stories I now hate, I'm working on it when ever I get a new idea. I've also been working on a story I have delayed since January the 28th. Both stories have are very typical. Nothing really cool and different, but it's just for practice. I'm waiting until I'm really good a writing to write a book I've been working on for awhile. I'm really excited about it and can't

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VIVIEN_ in July

Back from vacation

Hi, I just got back from a 4 day vacation. It was really fun if you don't include the fact that I got really sick the last day. Still recovering but I do feel better. We visited my grandma for her birthday, and spent some time at the beach. We went on a dolphin cruse a saw a pod of dolphins. They got really close to the boat. I really enjoyed it but I'm glad to be back. Soon my family has to go to a picnic, Im not allow to go since I'm sick. Anyway, bye.

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VIVIEN_ in June

Tuesday=school :<

Hi, so I'm taking a break from writing for a bit. Everything just got sloppy and I lost motivation. Right now I'm working on fixing my sleep schedule and eating healthy, with a little help from my sisters. I'm trying to take my life back, because depression caused me to stop caring about my life which caused me to stop trying to live it. I'm finally catching up on my school (I'm soo behind:.<), but I still have to do it over the summer (no summer break for me). I'm writing down idea

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VIVIEN_ in June

Have to make this quick

Hi,  Wednesday is bible study night and I'm not sure if I should go. Last time I went, (which was a while ago) everyone was playing games, but because I was new I just stood in a corner watching. It was really awkward. I'm not very comfortable there but it's the only place where I can make friends. Anyway, enough about that. A few months ago, before I came out to my mom, I was looking forward to celebrating pride. But little did my naive brain know I wouldn't be able to celebrate it. I thou

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VIVIEN_ in June

Story update

Hi, So a few days ago I had to delete everything I wrote for the second chapter. It became sloppy and I lost interest in it. I'm still planning on posting the second chapter on the 10th, but I might not be able to. Deleting it caused me to have to work harder on getting it done. I also have lost my motivation to write it so I'll be working on a old story. I'm not sure if they'll meet Kelly and Aden in this chapter but maybe. Writing a story is a lot harder then I thought. The first chapter

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Today's my B-day!

Hi! So today is my birthday and I thought it would go terrible but I actually has fun. I went to the arcade with my sisters, then we walked around a outside mall, bought somethings, and I got something sweet. We got sushi for lunch at a restaurant and they gave me a free slice of cake.. Then we got boba and then I got an ice cream cone and a whole cake. We went home I had a sugar crash and watched Disney+. We sang and ate the cake. I opened my presents. I'm planning on watching movies until

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VIVIEN_ in May

Just talking

Hi! So I just finished Ad Astra on Archive of our own, it made me cry soo many times. But I love it!  My birthday is coming up and I'm getting a new book, Daughter of the Deep by Rick Riordan. I'm very excited.  I haven't work on my story at all, so chapter two isn't finished. But I'm planning to get it finished by the 10th of June. Doesn't give me a lot of time but I'm tired of delaying it. I personally hate the way I write but practice makes perfect.  I just got my hair cut

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VIVIEN_ in May

It's soo hot today!

Hellooo, So I'm wearing a long sleeve shirt and its like 83°F. Let me explain, last night I got very bored so I may have drawn a bunch of Xs on my left arm. A lot. And well my mom doesn't like me drawing on myself, you get the idea. I know what your thinking, "Well Vivi why don't you just wash it off?" But the problem is I might actually like how it looks. I mean I've always wanted a bunch of tattoos on my arm. Anyway, I also painted three of my nails black on my left hand and two on my rig

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VIVIEN_ in May

I woke up at 6:46am

Hi, So yeah like the title said I woke up at 6:46am. Not on purpose obviously. So I just sat in my bed and read comics until 7:40am. I know right I spent an hour reading comics. Anyway I made some coffee and got ready for church. We got there around 9:30 when church starts at 9. After church we went to the arcade/bowling place. My sisters and mom didn't want to go there so they just got Panera. I'm not quite sure what triggered it but something did and I almost had an episode. So I didn't b

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VIVIEN_ in May

Did ya miss me!

Hi! I haven't posted here in awhile.  I haven't worked on my story at all! I kinda have writers block. It's terrible  My birthday is very soon, next Sunday soon. I'm not very excited but I will try my best to enjoy it.  My room is a lot more organized and I have started some new hobbies. Life has been pretty boring.  Oh, last night I had a crazy dream. I was able to control it! And I was a boy. I used to be a girl in all my dreams but recently I've been a boy. And I love

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VIVIEN_ in May

Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, OH MY GOSH!

Oh my gosh hello! Literally two minutes ago my brain was filled with ideas for my story. I am soo excited! I had only three characters but now I have six. Vale, gay, 17 Lois, bisexual, 16 Jazz, aromatic, 17 Kelly, lesbian, 16 Aden, straight, 17 (Will be introduced a lot later) Sam, gender fluid, 16 I haven't posted in a month because I'm falling behind and have too many ideas (trying to go through them and figuring out what to keep). I can't control my exc

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VIVIEN_ in Story

I'm bored

Hello fellow readers, Chapter two is taking a lot longer than I expected. School is taking up a lot of my time. My birthday is on the 29th and I'm not sure I want to celebrate it. But I know I'll regret it if I don't.  I've been on webtoon a lot more than I should but I'm addicted to comics. I found five more and already read them. The slice of life is my favorite. Next year I'm going to save half of what I earn until I'm 18. So then I'd have enough money to go to the UK of a

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VIVIEN_ in May

Need decorating advice! Talking about random things.

Hi, So I want to decorate my room with space and plants, but I don't know how. My room is dark brownish and looks good with teal and green. I have some plans but I'm not good at decorating. I need advice. I made some really cool drawings with pen, but now I have to buy more pens because I used it up. And my earbud just broke!  My birthday is on the 29th and I'm begging my mom to get my a murder mystery game. I love mysteries! My sister gave me an early birthday present and it was

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VIVIEN_ in May

Took a break | Link to my first chapter

Hi, I have taken a break from here for awhile, but I'm back now. Due to my laziness and school I won't be able to post as much. My story is also taking up a lot of my time, but is coming along wonderfully. I am planning my birthday, but don't know if I'll enjoy it. I also won't be telling my whole family I'm bi and asexual until I'm out of the house. I have been feeling very blue the past week and I'm not motivated to do anything. I really want to tell my family how I've been feeling becaus

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VIVIEN_ in May

Hello

Hi, I have just finished the first chapter in my story and now working on the second. I'm really excited because this is the first story I've committed to. I'm adding more to it everyday. I'm working on unpacking my room because I start school next week. I had to take a break to help move. I'm very behind on every subject and it will take forever to catch up:.( Bye, bye!

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VIVIEN_ in April

A little update.

Hi, I'm still very busy with unpacking. My birthday is next month so I have to plan for that. I also have to figure out what to get my brother and sister since their birthdays are next month as well. I'm working on my story, the first chapter is almost done. I'm coming out as asexual.  I plan to tell my mom, she doesn't like LGBTQ+ but I hope she'll be fine with it. I was planning to come out to my whole family as bi on my birthday but I don't think I'll do that. Bye, for now

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VIVIEN_ in April

Hi

Hi,  I've been dealing with a lot lately and don't think I'll be able to post here anytime soon, my mental health has gotten much worse and if affecting my physical health.  Sorry, bye for now.

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VIVIEN_ in April

Condoning

Sorry it took so long my dad took my phone away and I just got it back. I went swimming and condoning in the lake in my backyard. It was really fun. My sister flipped over and when trying to get back in the condo she flipped my other sister over. I had to jump out and pull the condo to shore with them holding on. I don't know why they didn't do that, but oh well. When we all got back on the condos I stood up and wiggled making it look like I was falling, then I fell. It was hilarious, we we

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VIVIEN_ in April

Sorry!

Hi, sorry I haven't been posting recently. The movers came yesterday and I've been very busy helping my mom. I might be able to post tomorrow or Thursday. Again sorry, bye.

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VIVIEN_ in April

Dark rainy clouds

Hi, It's raining right now and I feel very blue. I didn't do anything today because of the rain. I'm listening to sad love songs which is not helping. I don't know why I'm blue, maybe it's because I miss my old house or because I feel lonely. I'm probably going to work on my story. The chapter is almost done. I want to post it but I'm not sure where I should (any ideas?). I'm going to go make bracelets and listen to depressing music, bye my fellow readers!    

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VIVIEN_ in April

The 6th

Hi, only six more days until the movers are here! The only thing I did today was watch an unhealthy amount of youtube and read a bunch of comics.  I'm going to work on my story today. Hopefully finish the chapter. It's a lgbtq+ story. The main character is gay. I've always enjoyed reading, maybe a little too much. Give me a good book and I will pull all-nighters to finish it. My mom even had to take my books away at night to get me to sleep. I can't wait to be in my bed and have my boo

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VIVIEN_ in April

Sorry

I'm not going to post today and maybe not tomorrow. I've been very tired because of moving.

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VIVIEN_ in April

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