yeah so basically myself and my boyfriend are in the same group of friends, we all actually live together in two flats (not together with my boyfriend), so when they found out what he had done they were all also extremely upset as well and they all fell out with him, his two housemates actually moved out because they couldn't face him etc and nobody has really spoken to him as they wanted to support me of course.
The issue is I miss him so much and I am struggling not speaking to him/seeing him. We slept together one two weeks ago which I did instantly regret but I am currently so confused about what I want and also really alone and down so it was a mix of all of those and a few drinks as well. But when my friends found out id seen/slept with him, they all started talking to each other saying they felt let down by me and like they had all been falling out with zac for nothing. I do understand their point of view but its so difficult to explain. unless you are in my situation what you would do. I dont want to lie or look like I am disrespecting my friends advice/support and I dont want to fall out with them but currently I feel like I am living in a fishbowl and they are judging me whatever I do.
I wish I didn't have to make a decision right now, but I feel as though I do because of the position my friends are in etc. I feel like I have to cut contact with him but I really dont want to, but when I do talk to him I hate myself for letting him have my time because he needs to realise what he has lost... I dont know.